peace

Being a parent has definitely changed my view of the world. Before, I would have been sad about what happened at that elementary school in connecticut, but now that I have Seeley it affected me in a way that I can't even begin to explain. I have definitely been holding Seeley a bit closer these days and have been giving him lots of kisses and snuggles. It's so sad to think about what this stupid crazy idiot took away from those poor innocent children and their families. I have no idea how those parents are handling it and they have definitely been in my prayers. We've already been wrapping and putting Seeley's presents under the tree, and I can't imagine the pain those parents are feeling when they have to look at the tree and see their presents for their lost children that wont be used. So so sad! The other day on facebook I saw this picture on facebook and it immediately brought tears to my eyes because I knew it was true and that is what was happening.

I didn't go to my own ward yesterday since I went to my friend's baby blessing but my parents told an amazing story that a returned missionary told at their sacrament meeting. It was a story about how this family was at this monument place taking pictures and their little two year old was crawling around some tombstones and one fell on him and had hit him in the head. Well, this little boy wasn't doing well and they had called an ambulance for help. I guess things were really bad and blood was coming out of this child's ears. They wanted to try and get all the children away so they couldn't see, and one three year old said that he didn't want to leave because Jesus was there and he wanted to see Jesus. The person asked how he knew it was Jesus and he said because he looked like the guy in the picture at their house but instead of a red robe he was wearing a white one. The guy asked more questions and the little three year old said that Jesus was holding the little boy. The man then said he's holding his body? And the three year old responded saying not that body, but his other body and that Jesus was hugging the little boy and kissing his forehead and telling him that everything was going to be alright and that he was taking him home. The story brought even more tears to my eyes because it was just another conformation that Jesus was with those children that were killed the other day and even though this horrible thing happened to them they were taken care of and are in a much better place.

Thankfulness

Since it's November and tomorrow just so happens to be Thanksgiving I figured I needed to write a                        post about what I am thankful for.

                                                               1. Seeley Rey Lucero

This little guy is my pride and joy and means the world to me! I honestly don't know what I'd do without him! He is one of the best things that has ever happened me. He is so stinkin cute and funny and makes every day an adventure! Being a mom is one of the hardest things I have ever done, but it's so worth it and I wouldn't change it for the world! He truly makes my life complete!

                                                                     2. My Naldo

This guy right here is the bestest husband and daddy ever! I have no clue how he does it but this guy works and goes to school full time to take care of me and Seeley. I know he's tired and I know it's rough on him but he does it so we can have a better life. I know we are both looking forward to the day when he is done with school and we have more time to spend as a family. Like I said he truly is the best daddy ever! Seeley loves him to bits and pieces and you can just tell Rey has an amazing amount of love for our sweet lil man.

3. My Chloe

This may seem silly but I am so thankful for my little pug Chloe! She is the bomb dot com! But really, she is like a kid to me. When Rey was off training or on deployments many times she was one of the only things there for me and for that I will be forever grateful! I love her even more now that we have Seeley and I have seen how great she is with him. Even today Seeley was all over her and she didn't care! She is the bestest dog ever!

4. My Parents

I don't have a picture of them right now, but I can't forget them! They have ALWAYS been there for me and I don't know what Rey and I would do without them. We are currently living with them which is awesome so we don't have to worry about wasting money so we have all the money we need for Seeley, and bills, and even maybe saving some for a house! Also, it is so awesome having my mom around while I take care of Seeley. If I ever have any questions I can just go and ask my mom, or if I need a break to shower or what not my mom is more than willing to watch him for me.

Basically, I'm a lucky lucky lady and am so thankful for these individuals and for all the happiness and joy they bring to my life and I couldn't let today go by without letting everyone know how grateful I am for them!

ahh! i can't believe how fast my little man is growing up! tomorrow he will be 5 months! seriously though, where did all that time go?! although, as much as it saddens me to watch him grow up and not be my cute cuddly lil baby, it's even more exciting to watch him grow, learn, and all around change. he's got the cutest lil personality and every day he changes so much! he definitely knows what he wants these days and will let me know if i'm not doing what he wants. i can also tell he's gonna be a crazy one! he loves to move and is always jumping and moving and rolling. he is now starting to sit by himself and will sit up for about 10-20 seconds at a time now. you can also tell he really wants to crawl! the funny thing is though is he either spins himself in a circle or will move himself backwards! he's also got himself two little bottom teeth popping through! super duper cute! he also tried his first bit of cereal today. he definitely wasn't too sure about it, but i'm thinking the more he tries it the more he'll like it. my plan was to wait till he was about 6 months to try real food, but he has been watching us eat and always grabs and reaches for ours so i figured he was ready!

as for what is going on with me i'm selling paparazzi jewelry! i LOVE it already! paparazzi isn't like other direct sales companies where when you have a party you hear some big long spill, then order from a catalog, pay for shipping, and then wait for your order to come in. Paparazzi you order all your inventory and have it on hand so when people come to the party they buy it on the spot which means i make my money immediately and they get their goods immediately! plus, the jewelry is so stinkin cute that it pretty much just sells itself! I don't have to coax people into buying or make them feel guilty and make them spend all this money.. it's only $5 and when they see it most people just want to buy it all! Last night was my launch party and during my two hour party i made about $180! Not bad for two hours! Plus, I booked 3 parties! Speaking of parties.. if anybody is interested let me know! I'll glady do it and hook you up with some free jewelry! Had someone been the host of last night's party they would have gotten 7 free pieces! pretty shnazzy!

anywho! that is all!

pretty sure..

so i'm pretty sure that being a mom is the BEST job ever! there is nothing better than getting to hang out all the time with the person i love the most and with the person that loves me equally as much. i am seriously so in love with this little boy and he makes every single day amazing and each and every day just gets better and better. seeley's personality is now starting to really come through and it's so fun and kinda crazy to watch him grow, learn, and pretty much change every single day. plus, there is nothing better than walking into a room or just picking him up every morning when he wakes up and be welcomed with the hugest smile ever. he is starting to get pretty clingy with me, which honestly i don't know why because i do spend quite a bit of time hanging out with my mom and he see's my brother and sister-in-law and their kids quite a bit but he is starting to get a little fussy with them when he holds them and will freak out until i grab him back. although, he LOVES rey so stinkin much and it is just so cute. the crazy thing is, he probably spends more time around my mom than he does rey but he just loves him. as soon as seeley see's rey the biggest smile will come to his face! apparently rey is pretty funny too because seeley will just laugh and laugh at rey. i will do the exact same thing and he will just stare at me, but with rey? he goes nuts! one day he was laughing so hard he started crying! rey is super busy with working and going to school full time so it isn't like he can be around much but seeley definitely know's that rey is his daddy! plus, a lot of the time when rey is home he has to do homework so he can't pay all that much attention to seeley, but if seeley see's him he'll just start staring at rey and eventually yell at rey until rey looks and pays him attention. very very cute! i knew i loved rey, but i never knew how much love i could have for someone until i saw seeley and rey play. without a doubt every single time i watch them the biggest feeling of love just washes over me. i am so lucky to have such a sweet family and such an amazing husband that takes care of seeley and me and is doing his best to provide for us, even if it's hard for him. it is rough to not be able to spend too much time together, but when rey is done with school it will all be worth it.

so, there isn't much going on with me other than taking care of my little man. every day is just spent hanging out with and taking care of my little man. i generally have netflix on during the day so i get to catch up on my favorite shows which is nice, but i'm definitely busy! when seeley's awake i'm busy playing with him and keeping him entertained, and when he naps it is a mad dash to get the house clean and eat something. so, as many of you probably know i cut my hair recently. it's still rather weird to look in the mirror, and it's kind of a shock, but it's super convenient. it used to take me about 40-60 minutes to shower, style my hair, and put on my make-up, and now it takes me about 20-30 minutes. i think i may grow it back out at some point since i think i look good with chinish length hair, but for now i'm planning on keeping it short because it's nice to have one less thing to worry about when i'm so busy.

well, that's it for now. at some point i'll add some pictures of seeley since i take waaaay too many but that is all for now.

on fire!!

so i'm not sure what has gotten into me, but this past week i have constantly been on the go! generally i'm the type that likes to hang out and relax, but this week i've been super bored and been all about cleaning, and organizing, and just taking care of things.. i feel like i did when i was nesting before seeley was born! the only difference is this time i'm doing it! when i was pregnant i was getting so frustrated because i wanted to clean and organize, but i was just too stinking tired and exhausted to do it. well, now i'm just constantly cleaning and getting things done! back in the day when seeley would nap i would generally nap with him, or have some me time and just chill out and the past few days i've been cleaning and scrubbing, organizing and decorating! today i didn't really have much to do, so during seeley's big morning nap i went and made a recipe list and a shopping list for my next freezer meal cooking day! the only problem is i still have 5 freezer meals left over from last time, but i'm itching to make more! i'm pretty excited because i compiled a few i found on pinterst and a few family recipes that i think will freeze well! i'm pretty sure i'll be able to prepare it all in an hour or less for about $50-$60 and i'll be making 8 meals! pretty sure freezer cooking is my new obsession! having a baby it's so nice to just pull something out of the freezer and pop it into the crock pot or oven and not have to worry about cooking.. generally i just need to make a side which is easy peasy! pretty sure next time i'm pregnant i'm going to really stock my freezer and try and have a month's worth of food so i wont have to worry about it! this time i was lucky and live with my mom so she took care of dinner, and rey's grandma was here for a week making food so i didn't have to worry about it, but next time i have a kid we'll hopefully have our own place and wont be so lucky on the help department! i'm not sure what it is about babies, but generally around 5-7 they seem to get grumpy and just want to be held and that is generally the time i'd try to do dinner and it would be super frustrating, but not so much anymore!

so speaking of always wanting to do stuff these days, i've been watching a lot of hgtv while i feed seeley and it has made me want to remodel and decorate! ha! well, i'm pretty sure i convinced franny to work on some upgrades in her house so i'm pretty sure we're probably going to start painting, and maybe putting a backsplash in her kitchen.. so that will be fun!

anywho! i think that is all that is going on with me right now.. so peace out!

so much love!

as the title states i seriously have so much love these days! first off, seeley has by far been one of the biggest blessings in my entire life and i can't believe how much love i have for this little guy. i know i've said it before, but seriously every day i love him more and more. i love holding him and snuggling him and when he smiles at me my heart just melts! i'll admit, during those first two weeks after seeley was born i experienced those lameo flameo baby blues and one very long sleepless night i wondered if i was even going to be a good mom and maybe that i wasn't ready to be a mom, but that couldn't be further from the truth. i may not be the best mom in the world, but i'm trying and i would do absolutely anything for this little guy! my life has been so incredibly blessed and i thank my Heavenly Father every single night for blessing me with him and allowing me of all people to be his mom! plus, he's such a good baby! he really only cries when he has gas and is for the most part a very easy baby. when he's hungry he just grunts in a very cute demanding way and hardly ever cries unless i'm taking too long. i also thing that God knew i needed a baby that liked sleep as much as me because seeley has pretty much been an awesome sleeper since about 4 weeks! anytime between 10:30-2 am he goes to sleep and sleeps anywhere from 5-8 hours, wakes up and eats and is asleep within an hour or less than sleeps another 3-5 hours! i keep waiting for him to stop sleeping so well since i know i can't be this lucky, but he's been doing this for almost six weeks now so i'm just keeping my fingers crossed!

having seeley has also increased my love for rey! being a parent is hard work, but i'm so blessed that i have a partner like rey on my side! he loves seeley so much and always asks me to send him pictures of seeley while he is at work or school and as soon as he comes home he can't wait to hold seeley and play with him. he's also awesome at diaper duty! if i ever ask rey to change a diaper or do anything for seeley he'll always do it! rey also gives seeley his nightly baths and watching those two bond has to be the cutest thing ever! i'm pretty sure seeley is going to be daddy's little buddy because rey can't get enough of the little guy! also, seeley was blessed at church on sunday and i think that is definitely on my list of best day's ever ranking with being sealed, married, and seeley being born. rey gave seeley his blessing and he told me that he's only ever heard probably two baby blessings in his entire life and the blessing he gave seeley was amazing and by far the best i've ever heard! many people came up after and told rey the same thing and said that they loved that it wasn't the same old generic blessing that you hear every other baby blessing. honestly, i couldn't be prouder of rey and like i said am so blessed to have him as a husband and i so look forward to raising seeley and someday raising our future children together!

well, i figure i'll end here since this is probably getting rather gushy!!

so confuzzled!!

ahhh! i don't know what to do! since i had my little mishap during childbirth i figured that made my decision up over going back to work.. i was somewhat sad since i was going to miss my work friends and of course free movies, but i figured it was worth it to be with seeley. well, when i went to go and put in my two weeks notice they told me that as long as i bring in a doctor's note they will work with me and let me start back later and will also let me work part time.. so then i got all excited because now we have a bunch of doctor's bills and me working could pay that off and we'd still be able to save money and buy seeley nice things and not worry, but then when i think about working i get all depressed because i know i'll miss seeley so incredibly much and i'm afraid i'll miss some of his firsts! plus, with breastfeeding it seems like a pain.. i have been pumping each day and building a freezer stash, but it still seems somewhat annoying.. so then i start thinking i'll just quit, but then when i think about that i get worried about money, and sad about leaving my friends and free movies.. in the end i do think as long as my work continues to work with me and will only make me work 2-3 shifts a week i'll do it! i think it will be nice for me to get out a socialize, but still it just tugs at my heart strings to think about leaving my little baby boy.. even if it is for only 10-20 hours a week! oh boy! life is hard!

just a lil update!

not really much to report on, but figured i would write an update! so, i can't say it enough, but i am so in love with my little boy! it's amazing how much love you can feel for a child, but everyday i love him more and more. after hearing the horrible news of that movie theatre shooting and hearing about the 3 month old being injured i couldn't help but hold seeley a little closer today and give him loads of kisses. sure, he's been a major grump today, but that's not stopping me from loving on him! ha!

so being a mommy is really the bestest job ever! yes, it's amazing tiring and time consuming and your whole entire life revolves around taking care of them, but it's so worth it and i love the bond that seeley and i have. he's gotten to the point that if someone else is holding him and he hears my voice he immediately perks up and looks for me. the best is in the morning when he wakes up and i hear him stirring around and i get up as soon as he sees my face his whole entire face lights up and he has the biggest smile! even if i'm beyond tired i don't care because i get to go and snuggle him and take care of him. these days seeley has a good day, where pretty much all day he's just the smiliest and happiest baby, and then the next day he's good until about 4-5 pm and then he becomes a major grump (today being his grump day). i think he just gets a major buildup of gas and he looks like he is in major pain until he gets that gas and poop out! i never in my life thought i'd be happy to hear someone fart and poop! it's crazy! speaking of crazy, i can't believe how much he has changed in six weeks! he's so alert now and loves looking at things and reaches out and grabs things and smiles so much! he loves looking at people and smiling and will talk to you! it really is the cutest thing! i know he's only 7 weeks old, but he really is getting old so quick! i swear each day he gets bigger and grows over night! i weighed him at the beginning of this past week and he weighed 9.5 pounds! plus, he's now almost growing out of his newborn clothes! when he was born he didn't fit in preemie clothes since he was too long, but his newborn clothes were too big but he wore them anyway! now he's almost in the middle because his 0-3 month clothes are too big and his newborn clothes are getting tight, especially his night sleepers which are adorably cute and it's making me so sad! one of my favorite sleepers is so dang cute and it was the first sleeper we put him in and he's almost out of it, makes me want to tear up a little bit!

well, that's pretty much it! plus, seeley looks like he's about to wake up from a nap so i'm out!

crazy times!

well, here it is 4:30 in the morning and i'm wide awake! not only that, seeley's busy sleeping away in his pack n play next to me! his crazy hours are really messing with me! every day his hours change, yes, they are getting better, but still they are constantly changing! yesterday he was awake after this many hours so i think on instinct my body just woke up, but he's still busy just sleeping away and i'm wide awake! including today, he's been sleeping pretty good the past three nights and i'm hoping it stays this way! before, he went to bed at 10, woke up at 2, was up for 4 hours then back to bed for around 6. well, the past three nights he's gone to bed around 10-11ish and then pretty much sleeping through the night. well, the day before he went to bed at 10, woke up at 4:30 to feed, then was back in bed by five and slept till 10. it definitely felt nice to have a long night's sleep! the only problem is, i'm not a deep sleeper, especially not while having seeley sleep near me! i wake up at every little sound, and if i wake up on my own i get paranoid and have to check and make sure he's still breathing if i'm not hearing any sounds! plus, i'm having those typical post pregnancy night sweats and boy is it gross to wake up randomly and be completely covered in sweat! i know this is probably tmi, but when i woke up tonight my pillow was literally drenched in sweat and was super wet that i had switch pillows. i'm not sure why, but i swear nobody tells you this stuff about having babies, but there are a lot of non fun aftermath stuff when it comes to having babies. in the end though, it's all worth it to be a mom to such a cute and precious little baby. when i woke up a few moments ago, i was actually pretty sad he's not up because i just want to snuggle and hold him! he seriously is such a sweet baby and i'm so lucky to be his mom! really, the only times he cries is when he gets gas and other than that he's a pretty happy baby. it's especially fun now because he is really starting to smile and coo a lot! yesterday it was pretty adorable at one point because franny was watching him while i showered and when i came back he was just sitting there chilling with her, and then she handed him to me and as soon as he saw me and heard my voice his face just lit up and he started to "talk" and coo! it's moments like that that make all the hard times so worth it! i seriously love being this little guy's mom and i love seeing him grow! every day he changes and does more and i can see all the new things that he's learned and how he does more and becomes more alert and it's becoming funner and funner! not that i didn't love him or anything, but i've never exactly been a fan of the newborn stage, so him becoming more alert and interacting with me is so much fun! anywho! i'm going to try and go back to bed so wish me luck on getting a few more hours of sleep!

so in love!

i am so in love with this little boy of mine! it is crazy how much you can love someone that really you just met! plus, every single day i just marvel at how much i love him, and then the next day i swear that that love has increased. the thing i find funniest is when he's wide awake in the middle of the night i can't wait for him to fall asleep so i myself can catch a couple of z's.. and then as soon as i put him down i miss him! he sleeps in his pack n' play next to my bed, and even though he's pretty much right next to me i miss him and can't wait to hold and snuggle him again. i'll admit, those first two weeks were probably the roughest and most hardest days of my life, but every single second of it was so worth it! however i'm definitely liking being a mom much more these days! i'm not sure if it was because the 3 week mark is when i took a week off from visitors, or if it was the fact that my hormones finally decided to settle down, or if it was just me getting the hang of things but that third week everything just seemed to be so much easier and i started to figure out what his different cries meant and what he wanted when he wanted. plus, i finally started to get into a good rhythm with breastfeeding. i'm not sure if i was just ignoring this, or if really nobody had ever told me, but breastfeeding is freaking hard! it's not just some simple thing and it's very time consuming.. especially when you are feeding the baby every 1-2 hours. after like 2 days i was totally ready to give up, but everyone kept telling me it gets easier and even though those first two weeks sucked it really did get easier by week 3. from what i hear everyone says it really becomes second nature and a piece of cake by week 6 and that you will really start to enjoy it then, so as of right now i'm just waiting for that week 6, even though right now i'm really starting to not mind it! anywho! seeley is sleeping so i better try and catch some sleep before his next feeding!

mommyhood

since i think i've finally caught up on some sleep i figured i would update my blog. as pretty much everyone knows i gave birth to the sweetest little boy ever! on june 2nd, my due date, i felt the same as always.. no contractions.. seeley was still hanging out up high in my ribs, and i just felt normal. rey's uncle is moving to texas so he invited us over that day for a bbq! it was a nice relaxing day and we sat outside talking and eating yummy food! they made some really good salsa's and i tried one bite of the really hot one and rey seems to think that is the reason i went into labor that night. anywho! we came back from the bbq, and rey's grandma was with us and we stayed up talking until rey went to work. then i went to bed, but as usual i couldn't sleep. chloe was with me and she fell asleep on rey's side of the bed so i moved over to snuggle her. not too long after, around 1:50 am i felt something weird, almost thick, coming out of me so i stood up because i wanted to go to the bathroom to see what it was. as soon as i sat up i felt a HUGE gush fall out of me! like i said, the funny thing was, i was on rey's side of the bed. i went to the bathroom and sat down on the toilet and yet another gush fell out. after i let it empty a little bit i went and texted rey that i thought my water had broken. luckily i had bought a bunch of pads earlier that day because i was constantly leaking! i then tried to call rey, but he wasn't answering so i pretty much spent the next twenty minutes running around trying to get everything together that i would need at the hospital. i was about to call the front desk at rey's work to tell them to have him call me, but right as i was looking up the number he called me back and said he would be leaving right then. i then went and informed franny and dave what was happening and told franny i'd let her know when it got closer to me delivering since i of course wanted her there to help me!

rey got home in like twenty minutes and we made our way out the door and to the hospital! they checked me into a room and checked to see if my water had in fact broke, which it obviously had! seriously i hope my water never breaks on its own again! about every two minutes it feels like you are peeing yourself! plus, when i laid in the bed i had to lay on this pad to soak it all up and i just felt like i was laying in water until i got my epidural, but we'll get to that later! they checked to see if i was dilated and found out that i was 2 cm! they told me i could either just lay there and and rest or walk for an hour to try and get things progressing. i decided to walk around and rey and i spent the next hour walking around labor and delivery before heading back to the room to try and sleep. let me tell you, despite being exhausted it is almost impossible to sleep when every thirty minutes the nurses are coming in and out of your room to check on you! plus, the stupid night nurses messed up my arms trying to get iv's in, even after i told them i have bad veins and it would be better to just do it in my hand, but they insisted they could do it. after trying a few times they decided to let the morning nurse try and do it.

by the time morning came around i hadn't progressed too much and wasn't feeling my contractions at all so they put me on pitocin to try and start labor.. so at 7:00 a.m. is when they started it and said that was when my active labor started! the nurse also told me that i could get my epidural now if i wanted, but i decided to wait since i wanted to see what a contraction really felt like and wanted to see how far i could get. with the pitocin they start you off slow, and she said most people end up with doses of 20, but every time they tried to move it up, seeley's heart rate would either go up, or down too low so they'd stop it, or leave it at 1 for like a half hour before turning it off. the other thing that i had going on, was i was dilating, but seeley was still high up and not dropping, so to encourage him to drop i had to lay on my side and switch sides every thirty minutes. so around 2, i really started to feel those contractions and they were freaking painful! i decided that i was definitely ready for that epidural! i'm glad i asked when i did, because when the guy came in to do it my contractions started to get even worse. i give props to those ladies that give birth naturally because that was no fun! so the epidural was pretty crazy because as you know, it makes you numb from the waist down and it's so weird to not feel your legs! i felt bad for my nurse, because when it came time to switch sides i literally couldn't move and she pretty much had to lift me up and move me all around.

well, around five i got checked and i was at 9 cm so i called franny to let her know that she should probably come down now! at six, my body was technically ready to push, but seeley was still high up so they wanted me to wait an hour to try and get him to move down. well, at 7, he had moved down, but guess what? seeley had turned head up, which is not good so i had to move side to side again to get him to go face down! so 8 rolls around and it's time to push, so i do a couple of those and seeley's heart rate totally sky rocketed so they decided to call the doctor in case something went wrong and i needed a c-section. so he gets there at 8:30 and they have me push and seeley was doing just fine. the nurse basically said that most first time mom's will push anywhere between an hour to four hours depending on how good of pusher's they are. well let me tell you! i was freaking exhausted since i hadn't slept since the night before, hadn't had any food or water, only freaking ice chips, and pushing is hard! the idea of pushing for four hours scared the crap out of me so i pushed as freaking hard as i could every single time! at 9:30 they called in the doctor and told me that he would probably be out in the next half hour and maybe after a push or two! well at 9:44 seeley rey lucero was born! when i pushed him out and i looked over at him i seriously couldn't believe how insanely happy i was and how much i already loved that little guy! they then put him on my chest for a minute and i couldn't help but tear up a little bit! he then went off to be cleaned and weighed! seeley weighed 6 lbs and .08 ounces and was 20 inches long.. so basically he was a long skinny dude! he was such a sweet baby and had his eyes open the entire time and didn't cry at all! after about an hour they had everyone leave so i could try and breast feed him before he went off to the nursery. after breastfeeding him and rey went off to the nursery! it's funny how fast you can fall in love with someone because as soon as he left the room i was so sad and missed him already.

so that's the story of seeley's birth! being a mommy has been awesome, and very very tiring! during seeley's first week of life i maybe had gotten 8 hours of sleep.. not to mention my body had gone through one of the most grueling things ever! plus, it's pretty messed up that while you're trying to figure everything out and tired your hormones are raging! yep, that was one rough week but i have my seeley now and it was all worth it if it means i get to be his mommy!

me and seeley after he was born!

                                                        shortly after he was born!

                                                 daddy and seeley! he is such a good dad!

                                                       seeley on his way home!

                                                      sweet little man chillaxing!

                                                     seeley getting his sleep on!

ready and slightly overwhelmed!

i'm so stinkin ready to get this show on the road! as fun as it has been to have seeley inside of me and get to feel him move and get bigger, i'm so ready for him to be out and to hold him and give him lots of loves and kisses! of all my friends due around the same time they have all popped and i'm the only one left! even my doctor at my last appointment made a comment about how i'm his his patient with the next due date and to not let anyone pass me, but at this point i'm pretty sure people will! seeley loves to be up high and hang out in my ribs! it's funny, because anytime someone makes a comment about it looks like he's dropped down some i'll tell them to wait a few minutes and not too long after he'll come right back up! sometimes he gets so high up that i'll have to somewhat push him down so i can breathe! i feel lucky that i'm pretty much all belly and haven't puffed up super huge, but it's getting to the point where it is really uncomfortable. i'm now one of those people that when i stand up or sit down i'm pretty much grunting and it takes me a few extra seconds. like i said though, he's still super high up and i'm really getting kind of depressed because i feel like he's going to be late. my doctor has been checking me each week since 36 weeks to see if i'm dilated at all, and last week i was barely half a cm, and this past week he said i'm maybe a cm dilated. i know that being dilated really doesn't mean all that much since some women can walk around 3-4 cm dilated for a couple of weeks with nothing happening and women can be not dilated at all and then go into labor that night, but every time after he checks my doctor makes a comment about how if i go into labor anytime soon it's probably going to be a long one. plus, as i said before my doctor even made a comment about how high his head was up. he said he's head down which is good, but he said whenever he went to feel his head instead of going down towards my cervix like it should it kind of pops up and said something along the lines of hopefully it goes down lower. i dunno, just kind of stressing me out and annoying me since i'm just ready for him to be here! 

on top of all of that, i'm starting to get a bit overwhelmed in general! from what i've been seeing and reading most people want to come home to a house that is quiet and don't want too many visitors so they can bond with the baby and come up with a schedule, but i'm really starting to freak out because it feels like my life is going to be extremely hectic once he gets here. rey's grandma is in town which i'm excited about but at the same time leaves me somewhat worried especially since on june 10th my family is having a big family reunion and everyone is staying at my parents house.. so it's going to be loud, and noisy, and obviously everyone is going to want to see seeley so i just feel like i'm not really going to get any good alone time with my little guy! it feels like no matter what there is going to be tons of people around and ahhh! it's seriously stressing me out! plus, i hear the first few weeks take a lot of adjusting to and you're uncomfortable for a lot of obvious reasons and the last thing i want is to have all these people around with all this going on. i mean, we do have our own little place in the basement but you can still hear things down there and i'm probably going to look like an antisocial hermit. plus, i keep feeling like the way my doctor talks about seeley's head not going down, and with me feeling like he's going to come late i feel like i'm probably going to have to be induced and it seems like i could possible need a c-section and that recovery is obviously super painful and ahhh! once again it just stresses me out to no end! i really feel like i'm going to be giving birth right as the reunion starts and i really don't want to bring a brand new newborn home to be around a TON of people and a really noisy enviroment which is part of the reason why him not coming is stressing me out a little since it'd be nice to maybe get a little routine going, but it's not looking or feeling this way! anywho! that's it for now!

so close..

i'm so close to seeley getting here and i'm starting to get super anxious!! seriously though, i'm due in 2 and a half weeks! how crazy is that? it seems like just the other day i found out and was super paranoid about every little thing, and now here i am in the final stretch! i still think the little guy is going to come late which is kind of lame, but since doctor's wont let you go past 42 weeks that means he should be here in no more than 4 weeks! i'm still guessing either june 5th or june 10th! the sooner the better though since my family is coming in town on june 10th for a family reunion and that just seems like a pain! oh well! he will get here when he is ready! plus, i feel like i could be a lot more uncomfortable. as of right now the only real annoying thing is my lack of sleep. i'm seriously up most of the night tossing and turning and when i do finally fall asleep i'm back up in a half hour to go pee! no fun! i know once seeley gets here i'm not going to be able to get much sleep then either, but i'd much rather be up taking care of my little guy than due to being uncomfortable, plus i'm really looking forward to the day when i can sleep on my stomach again.

so let's see, i'm now taking time off of work which is nice. i seriously have no idea how i was doing it before because i've been relaxing a lot and i'm still just constantly exhausted! plus, i've been trying out a bunch of recipes this week to try and find quick, yummy, and easy meals to make once the baby gets here and it's been so nice to once again feel like i'm taking care of rey! as i've mentioned in other posts when i was working i'd save up all my energy for work, and once i got home all i wanted to do was sleep or relax on the couch! so now that i don't have to save up all that energy i have energy to do stuff like cook, clean, and get things ready for seeley! i still have quite a few things i need to get done before he gets here, so it's probably a good thing that seeley is probably going to come late, but for the most part his room is almost all the way put together which is nice, and i have most things that i'll need when he gets here. actually, the things i'm still planning on buying aren't necessarily needed, just wanted to make things a little easier.

well, i think that is all that is going on around here! just chillaxing and getting stuff ready for the baby!

my lameo hospital visit

i've had a few people text me to ask how i was after my facebook post about being in the hospital on thursday so i figured i'd blog about my very unfun hospital visit. well, that morning i woke up with a weird pain in my back. it actually wasn't bad at that point and i thought i had just slept on it wrong. with a few more minutes of trying to get comfortable i realized it wasn't that and thought maybe i had to go to the bathroom.. ha! well, after my bathroom visit i realized that wasn't the case and laid back down. at this point it was getting super bad and for the life of me could not get in a comfortable position. i ended up waking up rey and told him there was something wrong with my back. i've obviously had some major back issues this pregnancy, but this was a different kind of pain and in a whole different spot. rey even offered to rub my back but the second he touched it i flinched and had to pull away since that area was super sensitive. after trying to get comfortable for a few more minutes i decided to call my doctor because i knew something was wrong. i talked to his nurse and told him my pain level was to a six and it was super uncomfortable. she then asked if i had felt the baby move that morning and i said no, but my mind had been more concentrated on the pain since i had woken up. she told me to drink some sugary juice and do a kick count and that i should be feeling up to ten kicks an hour and that she'd check up on me after she consulted with my doctor. so after i hung up i drank some lemonade and things just got worse. i couldn't sit, stand, walk, lay down and my pain level was going up! plus, i was supposed to be counting kicks and i had only felt three, but like i said, i was in some major pain and was pretty much just crying as i tried to find a comfortable position for my body to be in! i ended up drinking like 3 glasses of juice in hopes of feeling the movements, but the pain made me so sick that i ended up throwing it all up.

well, about a half hour later the nurse called and i told her things had gotten worse and that i had thrown up. she put me on hold to talk to doctor tanner and when she came back on she told me to go to labor and delivery, which to me was pretty scary to hear! it also made me realize how much i've procrastinated and how i really need to get my hospital bag ready in case of an emergency like this one. well, rey and i hopped into the car and off to jordan valley hospital we went! jordan valley is like a half hour away from my house and that was seriously one of the longest car rides ever! so stinkin uncomfortable! well, we got there and they put us into a room right away. now i warn you, i'm going to be talking about pee a lot at this point, so if that grosses you out i suggest you stop reading! anywho! they had me change into a gown and then wanted a urine sample. well, when i went to the bathroom hardly anything came out. the nurse then set me up in the bed and probably the only nice thing was that they had something hooked up to my belly to hear the baby's heartbeat and i got to hear his little heartbeat all day. they then needed to hook me up to an iv and that was freaking painful! my veins suck, and i was dehydrated so i got stuck not once, but twice in the freaking hand and that my friends is painful! actually, while they were hooking up my iv i started to pass out. it's kind of funny because as i was passing out i remember thinking this is nice! all the pain was going away and it felt like i was drifting off to sleep! well, that didn't last long because they had me roll over to my side and it brought me back! haha! they then told me it would be about a half hour until the results of all my testing came back and they'd be back to check on me then. well, things went way downhill from then because i was in so much pain and was basically just crying in the bed! on a scale from one to ten my pain was probably at a 9, possibly even a 10 at times. eventually i called the nurse to ask if i could stand up just to see if that was more comfortable. kind of pissed me off because i even had to wait about 10 minutes before she came in to help me up. honestly it didn't do much, but i'd gone through about half of the iv bag so she had me go to the bathroom and they put a little bucket in to measure my pee again, and once again hardly anything came out.

at this point i think they could tell i was in pain so they gave me some morphine. that took my pain from the 9 down to like a 4. so i was still in pain, but at that point i was happy. it was kind of annoying since it made me super sleepy, but i was still in pain so i couldn't get myself to fall asleep. then the real fun started since they decided to put a catheter in me to measure how much urine i was producing in an hour. not one of my proudest moments in life, but i figure when i have the baby it will be worse so i should just get used to it. after a bit they had an ultrasound lady come in and she looked at my kidneys, and holy crap that was painful on my side that was hurting! plus, i had to take deep breaths while she did it and it hurt super bad to take in deep breaths. she even did something of my bladder and it had been about 45 minutes since i last went pee and she couldn't see my bladder at all, despite the fact that i'd just gone through a full iv bag. which now that i'm thinking on it, i think this was the reason i got the catheter, so just switch that around cuz i'm too lazy! ha!

basically, i was producing hardly any urine and they said i was making like 30 something, when i should be making 50 something. they said a really dehydrated person not drinking anything would probably produce 30, and here i was with these iv bags pumping me with stuff! basically just a bunch of testing and nobody had any idea as to what was wrong with me. and poor rey, since we left in a hurry we didn't bring anything to keep him occupied and about halfway through the visit his phone was dead, but he was a trooper and a really good support for me. at least he got to eat though, he went down to the cafeteria and got himself some grub, but i was only allowed to drink clear liquids. although, around 7:30 they said my doctor cleared me to eat something so i got really excited, and you know what they brought me? like 6 little packs of saltine crackers! i hadn't eaten anything all day so at that point i just took it and was grateful. however, my pain was once again starting to come back, and made it's way up to about a 7 or 8. the nurse said that he wanted to try and have me take some oral medication and so they gave me some percaset or however it's spelled and let me tell you, that was amazing!! within ten minutes i felt no pain whatsoever. not only did i not feel my back pain, but every single pregnancy ache and pain was gone.. i felt normal again! finally at about 9:45 the nurse said that since the medicine was working and i had produced a little more urine that was good to go, but if it came back really bad to go back to labor and delivery, and if it was just kind of bad to go to doctor tanner's office and he could give me a prescription and just to drink lots of water. they really had no answers as to what was wrong with me since all tests came up inconclusive, but their guess was maybe that i had passed a small kidney stone. so who knows! i do know that all that water that they pumped into me came out that night since every half hour i was up that night going to the bathroom!

now, i'm just drinking tons and tons of water in hopes that whatever that was doesn't happen again. i do get freaked out occasionally since every so often i can feel my kidney start to ache again, but luckily nothing like the other day so i'm just hoping it stays like that because i do not want to go through that again! well, that's my update and i hope it didn't gross you out too much!

so being pregnant i have decided is a love/hate relationship! i love being able to feel my little man's kicks and i can't help but already feel a great connection with him and love him lots, but then there are my random spouts of getting sick, my back issues, heartburn, and not that this is bad just yet, but sometimes his kicks and movements hurt.  his kicks are getting a lot stronger and sometimes it will catch me off guard and cause me to jump a little. the weirdest is when he gets really high up and just hangs out there and pushes up. it's a crazy amount of pressure and i can only imagine what it's going to feel like when he gets even bigger. seriously, it's so weird feeling him move into a position and putting my hand there and feeling some hard body part or another of his. as uncomfortable as it gets sometimes i still wouldn't change it for anything. i've always wanted to know what it feels like and i already feel an intense bond with him. i really just can't wait to meet him! funny thing is right now he is just kicking up a storm, and i think he has the hiccups.

as of right now i'm just chugging along and hoping that i can continue working and make it another month. i still need to work it out with my work, but i'm thinking of using my two weeks vacation at the beginning of may and then after that start my fmla leave since i get 12 weeks, and as long as i deliver around my due date that would give me 10 weeks before going back to work. plus, that would give me about a month off and i think both me and my body would appreciate it. i'd have about a month to just relax and get everything situated for the baby's arrival. working full time and being 31 weeks preggo is pretty exhausting and i pretty much use all my energy at work and as soon as i come home i just want to crash and relax. i always think that on my day off i'm going to get something big accomplished, but then all i want to do is sleep in and just lounge around all day. i know that by the time i'd take some time off from work i'd be around 36 weeks pregnant so i'll probably have less energy, but i'm thinking i'll have more time to get things done, or at least hope that i'm more motivated. anywho, seeley is still moving around like crazy and it's making it hard to think so this will just have to be a short little update.

pregnancy fun && pregnancy "fun"

so i'm pretty sure that everyone that reads my blog follows me on facebook, so i'm pretty sure you've all seen the 3D ultrasound pictures we got of baby seeley. we had decided that for rey's birthday that's what we would do to celebrate! before we went they told me to drink some orange or apple juice so it would get the baby moving. well, we kind of forgot, but since the place was at the gateway we stopped in the food court area to find something.. they didn't have juice but they did have orange julius.. yeah, not the smartest idea since its PACKED with sugar and when we first started the ultrasound he was moving around like crazy! some people say it ruins the surprise of what they will look like when they come out, but seeing him is the most amazing feeling in the world and i can only imagine how exciting it's going to be to see him in person and to get to hold him so i'm thinking it's not going to ruin anything. while they did the ultrasound they played some music, and the very first song was "the first time ever i saw your face" by celine dion and i'm not going to lie, when i got to see him and hear those lyrics i couldn't help but tear up! they also gave us a dvd of the ultrasound to the songs they played and when i showed my mom and watched it again i teared up once again. the little guy was actually being quite a booger and kept putting his hand in front of his face which made it so we couldn't get a good glimpse, and when he finally moved it, he turned his back to us. we actually stopped the ultrasound twice and had me get up, pee, and walk around in an effort to get him moving but nothing helped. they did offer to end it a little early and have us come back another time to try and get better pictures but we decided just to finish. we may not have gotten the greatest pictures of him, but i got to see my little man and that's all that matters. actually, it's probably a good thing we didn't reschedule since my back decided to be lame.

speaking of my back, it is getting a little better. on thursday i worked in the morning and my back was starting to hurt a little but i just figured it was the normal pregnancy backache thing. well, in the middle of the lunch rush my back just completely decided to give out. it was weird because i wasn't lifting anything, bending over or anything.. i was just busy making crepes and boom! i could hardly move! as soon as the rush ended i called over my manager and had a girl i work with get me a chair, but i couldn't even sit. after talking to my manager we decided i obviously couldn't work and i called rey and he came to pick me up. we tried to get me into the truck that he drove, but i couldn't get up since it was slightly elevated so we decided to take my car and have me lay down in the back. as we were crossing the little crosswalk i coughed and oh my goodness.. that was seriously the most painful thing i've ever experienced. i was literally frozen in pain. rey was like we can't just stand here in the crosswalk, but i literally couldn't move. luckily after a few more seconds i was able to move and we somehow got me in the backseat of the car. we knew i wasn't going to make it downstairs to the basement so we plopped me down on the couch where i have pretty much been living the past few days. the first couple of days were freaking horrible! i couldn't even make the slightest movement without being in total pain. the first few times i had to get up to go to the bathroom i was in so much pain that at one point i could feel myself blacking out but luckily rey was there to help. seriously, i don't know what i would have done without rey or my mom. heck, the first night i had to wake my mom up at 4 in the morning to come help me go to the bathroom, and a little while later to bring me a throw up bucket since the pills the doctor gave me were making me super sick. they have been awesome, because i obviously couldn't get myself food, water.. anything by myself and they were awesome and would help me out whenever needed. slowly i was able to get up by myself and today i have been walking around a little bit, and heck, last night i made it up and down the stairs which meant i got to sleep in my own bed! yay!! not going to lie, it was a pretty awesome feeling to be able to get up and make myself a little lunch today instead of being waited on. so where i am at now is i'm just relaxing and taking time to get my back back to normal. i still have to walk around slow, can't bend over, or lift anything so work is basically out of the question, but luckily i've worked it out so that i don't have to go back till Saturday night. I've also got a physical therapy session on friday that my doctor thought would help, so hopefully i can get this all worked out because laying around isn't my favorite thing in the world to do, especially since i wanted to work for as long as i can!

not going to lie, sometimes i get a little annoyed, upset, jealous.. etc whenever i see my other pregnant friends having such easy pregnancies and mine being a pain in the butt. maybe it's just them not being a whiner or complainer like me, but i had really bad morning sickness and it seemed like all my other friends had hardly any or none at all.. and now i'm having these back problems and it just feels so unfair at times. plus, when i first had this back problem i was freaking out and worrying about little baby seeley so much. i must say, it has made his little kicks, movements, and hiccups that much more special and amazing because it helped me to know that he was okay. plus, whenever i'd start feeling upset or feeling like this was too hard it'd just remind me how much i love him already and how this will all be worth it in the end when he's here. i only have a few more days until i'm in the third trimester and i'm already getting so antsy about his arrival! i just wish it were here, but only about three months left so i'll just try and remind myself how close i am. plus, we still have quite a few big things that we need to buy him, not to mention work on his room. we have all the paint and what not bought, but with rey's work and school, and now my back thing this has halted things a bit, but i figure it will happen sooner or later.. and rey's spring break is coming up soon which means we should have some extra time. anywho, i think that's it for now!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NALDO!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NALDY!!!!

Today is my Naldo's birthday so I figured I would write a little blurb about him. I am without a doubt one of the luckiest ladies ever because I have the bestest husband ever! I think being the youngest of eight left me pretty spoiled and i generally had someone to take care of me, and with Naldo being the oldest in his family I think he took on that role, and I'm so lucky to have someone that loves me and takes care of me as much as Rey does. The Marine Corps tended to be pretty selfish and wanted to be his number one and took him away from me a lot, but I could always tell he tried his hardest to make me his number one, even if I did give him crap about it every so often. When Rey was on both of his deployments I was always getting letters and phone calls, and often times he would give up sleep just to talk to me, and I'm pretty sure of all the girlfriends and wives that I was friends with on facebook and in real life I received more phone calls and letters. It's the things like that that let me know he loves me and cares and makes me realize how stinkin lucky i am! Plus, everybody that knows me knows how in love with Disneyland I am, and Rey was the bestest husband ever and took me on our honeymoon there, got me a season pass, and eventually got himself a season pass. Even though he grew to love Disneyland as much as me after awhile it wouldn't have been his first choice at the beginning but he is such an awesome and selfless person that he did it just for me!

As pretty much everybody knows by now I'm pregnant with our first child and I'm so happy and excited that Rey and I get to experience this all together, and baby Seeley is going to be one lucky baby because Rey is going to be an amazing father! I can tell that Rey loves his little guy already and even though I tease him about it I really do find it cute that he's already talking about taking Seeley fishing and hunting. They are definitely going to be bestest buds and I can't wait to see them together! I have to say, I think my favorite thing right now is how worried Rey is about getting him socks. Every time we go baby shopping Rey keeps saying we need to get Seeley some socks because his feet are going to be cold. Once again it's the little things like that, that let me know Rey is going to be such an amazing dad and is going to take care of Seeley just like he takes care of me.

I just want to wish my Naldy a happy birthday one more time and say thank you for all that you do for me and little Seeley! We love you so much and I can't wait to start our little family and continue to see where life takes us!

baby's got the moves like jagger

can i jus say how much i love feeling seeley's kicks and movements? seriously there is no better feeling in the world! the first time i really started to feel his movements was around 18 weeks. they were really soft, and honestly i can't really even describe what it felt like. as much as i loved feeling him move, i really couldn't wait for rey to be able to feel it with me. slowly i'd be able to feel his kicks getting stronger and stronger, and finally around 22-23 weeks i had my hand on my stomach and i felt the movements and kicks from the outside. i got so excited and tried to have rey feel, but he didn't feel anything. however, the next night he was moving around a ton and i had rey feel and he got to feel him move a couple of times. he was so excited and i think that has been my favorite part of this pregnancy so far. as much as i love hearing his heartbeat and being able to see ultrasounds and finding out his sex, it was such an awesome feeling for both me and rey to experience his movements, which made it feel all that more real. now days he moves around a TON! the time i feel the most movements is at night when i'm laying in bed. it could be just because i'm laying down and not doing much so i'm able to concentrate on it, but i love laying down and putting my hand on my belly and feeling all of his little movements.

other than that there isn't much else going on. our next big project is working on seeley's room. we already have his bedding picked out which is winnie the pooh, and the next thing we are planning on doing is painting, and then we will buy his crib. at this point we have a ton of baby clothes and really just need to organize everything. so really once we get his room all painted i feel as though we'll be able to organize his room completely. 

anywho i think that is it for now!!

Seeley Update and Goodbye Susie

Things for me for me are going pretty well. Once again all my life consists of is working and chilling out and relaxing so I'll have enough energy for the next day that I work. I'm actually pretty excited for and hoping that I do get in that nesting stage. I feel like I have a lot of stuff I need to get done before baby Seeley gets here, but I just don't have the energy for it. As for Seeley he is doing great! At my last doctor's appointment we of course got to hear his little heartbeat, and the doctor measured my stomach and I was measuring perfectly. I keep seeing pictures of pregnant ladies, since I have four friends who I keep seeing posting pictures of their baby belly pictures and we are all within a couple of weeks of each other and I swear their bellies all seem to be bigger than mine, but I guess I'm measuring normal so I should probably stop worrying about it. So my next appointment is on the 28th, and I have to do that Glucose test and I gotta say, I'm not all that excited for it, but I'll at least get to hear his little heartbeat again so I figure it will all be worth it!

Well, the other day my parents had to put down my childhood dog, Susie. Two days before she was acting normal, but then the next day she was really slow, and stumbled. Then the next day she was way worse and was having trouble breathing. I feel really bad because I knew my parents were going to take her to the vet and I knew there was a chance that she was going to be put to sleep but I'm already an emotional pregnant mess so I didn't go in and say goodbye or anything and now I just feel really really sad about it. I guess at the vet they were going to do tests but she just kept getting worse and worse and the vet said that she probably wasn't going to make it so they suggested they put her down so my parents did. I'm glad she is out of pain and this is for the best since as I got older I didn't spend much time with her and she spent most of her days in the backyard alone with our other dog Mojo. Actually it all just makes me feel even worse since I don't even think she knows that I loved her and it just makes me feel horrible. Well, that's enough about that because at the moment I'm sitting here crying so I guess that is it!

baby boy update!

I feel like I should have a ton of stuff to say, but really there isn't all that much. I'm seriously just doing the same old thing pretty much every day. I sleep, I eat, and I work. It sucks that I get free movies but whenever I'm not working or actually have a day off all I want to do is relax, lounge, and sleep. I feel super lazy, but seriously I just don't have the energy.

So as pretty much everybody knows we found out we are having a little boy! Honestly that was a really weird but AMAZING moment. When I first got pregnant I just knew it was a boy, but once I started with the morning sickness and all of that I changed my mind to girl. I was 95% sure I was having a girl, so when we went in for the ultrasound last thursday it was a pretty big shock when the lady said boy. The whole ultrasound thing was actually pretty funny. My sister told me to drink a little bit of coke before I went in to get the baby moving so they wouldn't have their legs closed or anything like that. It must have worked because when we went into the room she asked if we wanted to know what the sex was, and we said yes. Pretty much as soon as I laid down and she put the thing on my stomach and the picture showed up, she was just like 'it's a boy'. Like I said I was super surprised anyways that it was a boy, and I honestly thought it would take longer to figure it out. For the rest of the ultrasound it was kind of funny because he was moving around A LOT. Although at one point she couldn't get him to move into one certain position, so I had to get up and go to the bathroom to try and get him moving into the right position. Luckily it worked out and we got all of the pictures they needed and we also got some super cool ones for us. We even got a little dvd of him moving around. That picture up there is one of the pictures we got, and when they took this he was moving around and I couldn't help but feel my eyes tear up a bit.

Honestly, I think I'm in the most exciting part of this pregnancy. Yes, I still get sick every so often, but for the most part I'm feeling pretty good and now I get to concentrate on all the fun things of pregnancy, like my ever growing belly. Some days I'll wake up and it will surprise me how big I am getting, and sometimes it feels like even in just one night my stomach has grown. Even more than that I'm starting to feel him move around. Some days I'll feel it a lot, and then some days not at all, but any time I feel it I can't help but get excited and know it's my little guy in there. I'm so excited for him to really start kicking and for Rey to be able to experience his movements with me. So one question I have been getting a lot of recently is what names are we thinking of, and right now we are pretty positive it's going to be Seeley! Whenever I tell people they either seem to really like it, or just look confused and say they don't like it, but right now I'm digging it, and Rey likes it and Rey is pretty much calling him that now every time he talks about the baby or is talking to my tummy, so for now it's looking like it's going to be Seeley, so if you don't like it I don't want to hear it! :) haha! anywho! i think that's it!