on fire!!

so i'm not sure what has gotten into me, but this past week i have constantly been on the go! generally i'm the type that likes to hang out and relax, but this week i've been super bored and been all about cleaning, and organizing, and just taking care of things.. i feel like i did when i was nesting before seeley was born! the only difference is this time i'm doing it! when i was pregnant i was getting so frustrated because i wanted to clean and organize, but i was just too stinking tired and exhausted to do it. well, now i'm just constantly cleaning and getting things done! back in the day when seeley would nap i would generally nap with him, or have some me time and just chill out and the past few days i've been cleaning and scrubbing, organizing and decorating! today i didn't really have much to do, so during seeley's big morning nap i went and made a recipe list and a shopping list for my next freezer meal cooking day! the only problem is i still have 5 freezer meals left over from last time, but i'm itching to make more! i'm pretty excited because i compiled a few i found on pinterst and a few family recipes that i think will freeze well! i'm pretty sure i'll be able to prepare it all in an hour or less for about $50-$60 and i'll be making 8 meals! pretty sure freezer cooking is my new obsession! having a baby it's so nice to just pull something out of the freezer and pop it into the crock pot or oven and not have to worry about cooking.. generally i just need to make a side which is easy peasy! pretty sure next time i'm pregnant i'm going to really stock my freezer and try and have a month's worth of food so i wont have to worry about it! this time i was lucky and live with my mom so she took care of dinner, and rey's grandma was here for a week making food so i didn't have to worry about it, but next time i have a kid we'll hopefully have our own place and wont be so lucky on the help department! i'm not sure what it is about babies, but generally around 5-7 they seem to get grumpy and just want to be held and that is generally the time i'd try to do dinner and it would be super frustrating, but not so much anymore!

so speaking of always wanting to do stuff these days, i've been watching a lot of hgtv while i feed seeley and it has made me want to remodel and decorate! ha! well, i'm pretty sure i convinced franny to work on some upgrades in her house so i'm pretty sure we're probably going to start painting, and maybe putting a backsplash in her kitchen.. so that will be fun!

anywho! i think that is all that is going on with me right now.. so peace out!

so much love!

as the title states i seriously have so much love these days! first off, seeley has by far been one of the biggest blessings in my entire life and i can't believe how much love i have for this little guy. i know i've said it before, but seriously every day i love him more and more. i love holding him and snuggling him and when he smiles at me my heart just melts! i'll admit, during those first two weeks after seeley was born i experienced those lameo flameo baby blues and one very long sleepless night i wondered if i was even going to be a good mom and maybe that i wasn't ready to be a mom, but that couldn't be further from the truth. i may not be the best mom in the world, but i'm trying and i would do absolutely anything for this little guy! my life has been so incredibly blessed and i thank my Heavenly Father every single night for blessing me with him and allowing me of all people to be his mom! plus, he's such a good baby! he really only cries when he has gas and is for the most part a very easy baby. when he's hungry he just grunts in a very cute demanding way and hardly ever cries unless i'm taking too long. i also thing that God knew i needed a baby that liked sleep as much as me because seeley has pretty much been an awesome sleeper since about 4 weeks! anytime between 10:30-2 am he goes to sleep and sleeps anywhere from 5-8 hours, wakes up and eats and is asleep within an hour or less than sleeps another 3-5 hours! i keep waiting for him to stop sleeping so well since i know i can't be this lucky, but he's been doing this for almost six weeks now so i'm just keeping my fingers crossed!

having seeley has also increased my love for rey! being a parent is hard work, but i'm so blessed that i have a partner like rey on my side! he loves seeley so much and always asks me to send him pictures of seeley while he is at work or school and as soon as he comes home he can't wait to hold seeley and play with him. he's also awesome at diaper duty! if i ever ask rey to change a diaper or do anything for seeley he'll always do it! rey also gives seeley his nightly baths and watching those two bond has to be the cutest thing ever! i'm pretty sure seeley is going to be daddy's little buddy because rey can't get enough of the little guy! also, seeley was blessed at church on sunday and i think that is definitely on my list of best day's ever ranking with being sealed, married, and seeley being born. rey gave seeley his blessing and he told me that he's only ever heard probably two baby blessings in his entire life and the blessing he gave seeley was amazing and by far the best i've ever heard! many people came up after and told rey the same thing and said that they loved that it wasn't the same old generic blessing that you hear every other baby blessing. honestly, i couldn't be prouder of rey and like i said am so blessed to have him as a husband and i so look forward to raising seeley and someday raising our future children together!

well, i figure i'll end here since this is probably getting rather gushy!!

so confuzzled!!

ahhh! i don't know what to do! since i had my little mishap during childbirth i figured that made my decision up over going back to work.. i was somewhat sad since i was going to miss my work friends and of course free movies, but i figured it was worth it to be with seeley. well, when i went to go and put in my two weeks notice they told me that as long as i bring in a doctor's note they will work with me and let me start back later and will also let me work part time.. so then i got all excited because now we have a bunch of doctor's bills and me working could pay that off and we'd still be able to save money and buy seeley nice things and not worry, but then when i think about working i get all depressed because i know i'll miss seeley so incredibly much and i'm afraid i'll miss some of his firsts! plus, with breastfeeding it seems like a pain.. i have been pumping each day and building a freezer stash, but it still seems somewhat annoying.. so then i start thinking i'll just quit, but then when i think about that i get worried about money, and sad about leaving my friends and free movies.. in the end i do think as long as my work continues to work with me and will only make me work 2-3 shifts a week i'll do it! i think it will be nice for me to get out a socialize, but still it just tugs at my heart strings to think about leaving my little baby boy.. even if it is for only 10-20 hours a week! oh boy! life is hard!