just a lil update!

not really much to report on, but figured i would write an update! so, i can't say it enough, but i am so in love with my little boy! it's amazing how much love you can feel for a child, but everyday i love him more and more. after hearing the horrible news of that movie theatre shooting and hearing about the 3 month old being injured i couldn't help but hold seeley a little closer today and give him loads of kisses. sure, he's been a major grump today, but that's not stopping me from loving on him! ha!

so being a mommy is really the bestest job ever! yes, it's amazing tiring and time consuming and your whole entire life revolves around taking care of them, but it's so worth it and i love the bond that seeley and i have. he's gotten to the point that if someone else is holding him and he hears my voice he immediately perks up and looks for me. the best is in the morning when he wakes up and i hear him stirring around and i get up as soon as he sees my face his whole entire face lights up and he has the biggest smile! even if i'm beyond tired i don't care because i get to go and snuggle him and take care of him. these days seeley has a good day, where pretty much all day he's just the smiliest and happiest baby, and then the next day he's good until about 4-5 pm and then he becomes a major grump (today being his grump day). i think he just gets a major buildup of gas and he looks like he is in major pain until he gets that gas and poop out! i never in my life thought i'd be happy to hear someone fart and poop! it's crazy! speaking of crazy, i can't believe how much he has changed in six weeks! he's so alert now and loves looking at things and reaches out and grabs things and smiles so much! he loves looking at people and smiling and will talk to you! it really is the cutest thing! i know he's only 7 weeks old, but he really is getting old so quick! i swear each day he gets bigger and grows over night! i weighed him at the beginning of this past week and he weighed 9.5 pounds! plus, he's now almost growing out of his newborn clothes! when he was born he didn't fit in preemie clothes since he was too long, but his newborn clothes were too big but he wore them anyway! now he's almost in the middle because his 0-3 month clothes are too big and his newborn clothes are getting tight, especially his night sleepers which are adorably cute and it's making me so sad! one of my favorite sleepers is so dang cute and it was the first sleeper we put him in and he's almost out of it, makes me want to tear up a little bit!

well, that's pretty much it! plus, seeley looks like he's about to wake up from a nap so i'm out!

crazy times!

well, here it is 4:30 in the morning and i'm wide awake! not only that, seeley's busy sleeping away in his pack n play next to me! his crazy hours are really messing with me! every day his hours change, yes, they are getting better, but still they are constantly changing! yesterday he was awake after this many hours so i think on instinct my body just woke up, but he's still busy just sleeping away and i'm wide awake! including today, he's been sleeping pretty good the past three nights and i'm hoping it stays this way! before, he went to bed at 10, woke up at 2, was up for 4 hours then back to bed for around 6. well, the past three nights he's gone to bed around 10-11ish and then pretty much sleeping through the night. well, the day before he went to bed at 10, woke up at 4:30 to feed, then was back in bed by five and slept till 10. it definitely felt nice to have a long night's sleep! the only problem is, i'm not a deep sleeper, especially not while having seeley sleep near me! i wake up at every little sound, and if i wake up on my own i get paranoid and have to check and make sure he's still breathing if i'm not hearing any sounds! plus, i'm having those typical post pregnancy night sweats and boy is it gross to wake up randomly and be completely covered in sweat! i know this is probably tmi, but when i woke up tonight my pillow was literally drenched in sweat and was super wet that i had switch pillows. i'm not sure why, but i swear nobody tells you this stuff about having babies, but there are a lot of non fun aftermath stuff when it comes to having babies. in the end though, it's all worth it to be a mom to such a cute and precious little baby. when i woke up a few moments ago, i was actually pretty sad he's not up because i just want to snuggle and hold him! he seriously is such a sweet baby and i'm so lucky to be his mom! really, the only times he cries is when he gets gas and other than that he's a pretty happy baby. it's especially fun now because he is really starting to smile and coo a lot! yesterday it was pretty adorable at one point because franny was watching him while i showered and when i came back he was just sitting there chilling with her, and then she handed him to me and as soon as he saw me and heard my voice his face just lit up and he started to "talk" and coo! it's moments like that that make all the hard times so worth it! i seriously love being this little guy's mom and i love seeing him grow! every day he changes and does more and i can see all the new things that he's learned and how he does more and becomes more alert and it's becoming funner and funner! not that i didn't love him or anything, but i've never exactly been a fan of the newborn stage, so him becoming more alert and interacting with me is so much fun! anywho! i'm going to try and go back to bed so wish me luck on getting a few more hours of sleep!