crazy times!

well, here it is 4:30 in the morning and i'm wide awake! not only that, seeley's busy sleeping away in his pack n play next to me! his crazy hours are really messing with me! every day his hours change, yes, they are getting better, but still they are constantly changing! yesterday he was awake after this many hours so i think on instinct my body just woke up, but he's still busy just sleeping away and i'm wide awake! including today, he's been sleeping pretty good the past three nights and i'm hoping it stays this way! before, he went to bed at 10, woke up at 2, was up for 4 hours then back to bed for around 6. well, the past three nights he's gone to bed around 10-11ish and then pretty much sleeping through the night. well, the day before he went to bed at 10, woke up at 4:30 to feed, then was back in bed by five and slept till 10. it definitely felt nice to have a long night's sleep! the only problem is, i'm not a deep sleeper, especially not while having seeley sleep near me! i wake up at every little sound, and if i wake up on my own i get paranoid and have to check and make sure he's still breathing if i'm not hearing any sounds! plus, i'm having those typical post pregnancy night sweats and boy is it gross to wake up randomly and be completely covered in sweat! i know this is probably tmi, but when i woke up tonight my pillow was literally drenched in sweat and was super wet that i had switch pillows. i'm not sure why, but i swear nobody tells you this stuff about having babies, but there are a lot of non fun aftermath stuff when it comes to having babies. in the end though, it's all worth it to be a mom to such a cute and precious little baby. when i woke up a few moments ago, i was actually pretty sad he's not up because i just want to snuggle and hold him! he seriously is such a sweet baby and i'm so lucky to be his mom! really, the only times he cries is when he gets gas and other than that he's a pretty happy baby. it's especially fun now because he is really starting to smile and coo a lot! yesterday it was pretty adorable at one point because franny was watching him while i showered and when i came back he was just sitting there chilling with her, and then she handed him to me and as soon as he saw me and heard my voice his face just lit up and he started to "talk" and coo! it's moments like that that make all the hard times so worth it! i seriously love being this little guy's mom and i love seeing him grow! every day he changes and does more and i can see all the new things that he's learned and how he does more and becomes more alert and it's becoming funner and funner! not that i didn't love him or anything, but i've never exactly been a fan of the newborn stage, so him becoming more alert and interacting with me is so much fun! anywho! i'm going to try and go back to bed so wish me luck on getting a few more hours of sleep!