so in love!

i am so in love with this little boy of mine! it is crazy how much you can love someone that really you just met! plus, every single day i just marvel at how much i love him, and then the next day i swear that that love has increased. the thing i find funniest is when he's wide awake in the middle of the night i can't wait for him to fall asleep so i myself can catch a couple of z's.. and then as soon as i put him down i miss him! he sleeps in his pack n' play next to my bed, and even though he's pretty much right next to me i miss him and can't wait to hold and snuggle him again. i'll admit, those first two weeks were probably the roughest and most hardest days of my life, but every single second of it was so worth it! however i'm definitely liking being a mom much more these days! i'm not sure if it was because the 3 week mark is when i took a week off from visitors, or if it was the fact that my hormones finally decided to settle down, or if it was just me getting the hang of things but that third week everything just seemed to be so much easier and i started to figure out what his different cries meant and what he wanted when he wanted. plus, i finally started to get into a good rhythm with breastfeeding. i'm not sure if i was just ignoring this, or if really nobody had ever told me, but breastfeeding is freaking hard! it's not just some simple thing and it's very time consuming.. especially when you are feeding the baby every 1-2 hours. after like 2 days i was totally ready to give up, but everyone kept telling me it gets easier and even though those first two weeks sucked it really did get easier by week 3. from what i hear everyone says it really becomes second nature and a piece of cake by week 6 and that you will really start to enjoy it then, so as of right now i'm just waiting for that week 6, even though right now i'm really starting to not mind it! anywho! seeley is sleeping so i better try and catch some sleep before his next feeding!