HCG FINAL RESULTS

well ladies and gentleman! i finished my last day of the whole entire hcg thing yesterday! i love being able to eat whatever i want! actually i had already added in starches and sugars before i was supposed to, but i kept mantaining the same weight, so in all i figured it didn't matter much.. but today i get to add in carbs! woot woot! well, my final weight is 155.6!! how cool is that? i have lost 2 pounds since i have even stopped doing the drops! plus, i ended at the weight that i wanted, so basically, as long as i eat right and exercise i figure i can keep this off until rey gets back! so ler me remind you.. my starting weight was 169.8, which means i have pretty much lost 13 pounds! woooot! go me! as for all the inches i have lost, i have lost three inches on my thigh, one inch on my hips, almost five inches on my waist, two inches on my arm, and two on my bust! i seriously couldn't be happier with the results! i feel pretty darn good these days and love the way my clothes fit! truly my goal is just to stay this size, but if i lose more that's cool too, but i truly am happy with where i am at. i honestly have never wanted to be one of those super thin girls with no meat on their bones, and honestly it grosses me out.. so i'm feeling good and healthy right now... so ha! perhaps i will post some before and after pictures.. we shall see!!

peace in the middle east,
kristen

updates, updates, updates

you know you haven't blogged in a long time when someone has to remind you to blog!! okay, so maybe i didn't forget, but every time i remembered or thought about blogging i was sad or in a bad mood and knew it would just end up being yet another depressing deployment blog post, but today, i was pretty darn deteremined to get up a post, so if in the end it still turns out to be another depressing blog post i apologize!!!

so let's see.. what all has gone down since my last post?! first and foremost i guess i have just been staying busy with work! it may be a lame job and i may only be making 8.50 an hour, but this job has seriously been amazing for me. it truly has kept me busy and for the most part has given me a couple hours a week where my mind wouldn't solely be on rey and how much i miss him! plus, the extra money has been pretty awesome as well! another thing that has gone down was mikaele's halloween party! it was pretty fun.. kind of weird at first when some lameos came and brought some alcoholic beverages to our clean fun party, and after some awkwardness those people were kicked off and we were finally able to have some fun. after doing the whole hcg thing i decided to let myself have some sugar a little early, and i'm not going to lie, i went freaking NUTS!! like seriously! i was beyond hyper and to anyone i may have bugged i apologize! heck, my friend and i got so hyper we somehow thought it was a good idea to smash cupcakes in each other's faces... yeah, i dunno! speaking of hcg i finish the whole entire process tomorrow which means i can finally add in sugar, carbs, and straches.. although i must confess i have added in a little sugar and starches here in there.. so tomorrow is pretty much me just adding in carbs! i did quit the drops a week early, so i possibly could have lost a couple more pounds.. but everyday when i weigh myself i'm generally at 156.4.. so since my starting weight was 169.8 i think my final weight loss is going to be 12 and a half pounds.. and to be honest i am cool with that! although i think my goal for when rey gets home is going to be 155... if i lose even more than that it's just an added bonus! so my sister and brother in law finally got into town and that's been pretty cool. the worst part, which will probably be cooler tomorrow, is my sister is pregnant and just cooks crap all day! i want to eat it all soooooo bad! haha! they also brought their two huge dogs and at first it was super annoying cuz chloe didn't get along with them, but know one of them tolerates chloe and the other one and chloe are pretty good friends and play.. and it is so funny to watch chloe wrestle with this huge dog! as for rey he is doing good i suppose! i haven't really heard from him since he left his last port.. in all i have gotten two e-mails.. so that has been pretty depressing! the worst part is, is i think i have hit that deployment wall where i truly just don't want to deal with it anymore and am just ready for it to be over. okay, so i pretty much have felt that the ENTIRE deployment, but right now i really am just done! i think it's because after getting to talk to him on the phone so much and even skype it was a little taste of him being home, and now to have that all gone again has been pretty depressing!!

well, i think that's it! i know it's a lame update but it's all i've got!!

peace in the middle east,
kristen

rough day

well, i knew it had to come sometime, and even though i'm excited for what's to come to hopefully keep me busy, i couldn't help but have a day where i feel beyond depressed. this past week has been the best week of this deployment so far. everyday i have gotten to talk to rey for a minimum of an hour and a half and even got to skype twice! it was just perfect, and of course i knew he had to leave this port sometime, i just tried to forget about that because it has been so amazing to talk to him. well, they are leaving that port tomorrow which means we just had our last phone call and i can't stop crying. i feel like i did at the beginning of this deployment because i know that this isn't going to happen again this deployment and even though i have gone through almost five months now, two months is still a long time! i just feel beyond discouraged and even though we just said goodbye like ten minutes ago i miss him now more than ever. i know i am being selfish but i am sick of super short e-mails since he only gets twenty minutes on the computer a day and he isn't the best at computers.. and let's not forget the computers are slow and suck so it basically means when he does get it to work it's like a two sentence long e-mail.. and then there are the phones on ship that are even worse than the computers and all you hear is "static, i love, more static, hey, more static, hear me" yeah, those are basically the conversations we have while he is on ship so if i am lucky i maybe get one of those once or twice a month. it's just so hard to go from hearing his voice every day to pretty much nothing again. i am just ready for this to be over with! today is just one of those days where i am just done with it! i keep trying to remind myself that there are only two months left, and that last night when i checked my donut of misery i only have 30% of this deployment left, but it's so hard to be positive when you know that you are hardly going to hear from them... it's also hit me how alone i feel these days. i almost feel like i just don't belong anywhere. i don't really fit in well with my single friends because we are just in two different places and i don't feel like they can relate to me at all, and then there are my married and and taken friends who have their man so if i hang out with them i'm just a third wheel.. my family tries to be as supportive as they can, but even then they don't really know what i am going through.. i'm just feeling lonely i guess and until rey gets back i think i will continue to feel that lonlieness.. okay.. i think i need to stop feeling sorry for myself so i guess i will end here.

peace in the middle east,
kristen

i'm a horrible person..

sooo, i'm pretty sure i'm a horrible person! during rey's last deployment of all my marine wifey/girlfriend friends who also had men on deployments were a month or two behind me, and this deployment all of them are ahead of me. i definitely think i liked them being a month or two behind me because i am getting CRAZY jealous this time! last night one of my good wifey friend's had her man come home and while i was happy for her, at the same time i was really really bitter and kind of annoyed that it wasn't me that had my man coming home. basically i feel like a shiesty friend because i feel like i should be beyond excited for her! basically leading up until about a week ago i was, but just knowing that she gets to hug, kiss, and be with her man i can't help but feel sad that that isn't me. i keep trying to remind myself that she has gone through the whole seven months while i have only gone through five, but it still sucks!! it's kind of weird, but rey and i have hardly gotten to talk at all this deployment and the past few days we have gotten to talk for about an hour and a half to two hours and even have cute little skype dates and to be honest i think this has made things worse on me. i know it sounds crazy, but i think not talking to him so much has made it easier in the sense that i am used to not talking to him or seeing him, but now that i have gotten to have legit conversations and hear him laugh, and well, gotten to see him and watch him laugh i can't help but want to be with him even more. i think i'm just ready to be with my husband! i keep reminding myself that once he's back he's back for good and we wont ever have to say goodbye like that again, but sadly the past couple days have just been one of those days where i just miss him and basically nothing will cheer me up except for him being back with me, but since that's obviously not going to happen i should really just deal with it, but i just can't get myself to get over it! i took a few pictures of my super cutest skype date and i'll post them here for you all to see cuz i know you are just dying to see my man!




isn't he handsome?! i just loves him and he knows exactly how to make me smile! like i said, seeing him has made it a bit harder since it makes me long to have him back even more, but i am truly truly grateful to be able to skype with him since i know there are many military wifeys who haven't and won't get that opportunity! i think that really is my problem.. i'm just being selfish when i should really just be thankful for what i do have.. so here is my attempt at being grateful that even though i still have over two months left, i am so lucky that these past five have gone by so fast!!

peace in the middle east,
kristen

life is good and busy!

to be completely honest, i'm pretty stoked about life right now! i honestly cannot believe that i am coming up on the five month mark of rey being gone! i can remember the sad depressing car ride home from california like it was yesterday... and here i am almost two months away from being back with my baby!!! pretty stoked! i'm pretty sure that i will once again hit one of those inevitable moments where everything seems to go wrong and all i want is my hubby to hold me and tell me everything is going to be okay and it will once again feel like forever away till he's back, but right now i'm feeling like i can do it! rey's ship is actually at a libbo port, which means they are at a place where they can get off the ship and actually have some fun, which for rey should be super awesome since he was on that ship for THREE months straight without getting off.. i'm pretty sure him and all his buddies were probably going pretty crazy.. anyways.. my point is.. one of the major plus sides of these ports is he gets to call me from a phone that doesn't suck!! the other day we actually had an hour and a half phone call with NO STATIC!! it was amazing! it was so nice to have a conversation and not have to say 'wait, what did you say?' every three seconds! well today kind of sucked since he was only able to call me while i was at work, but he did inform me that there is a place there to skype and either tomorrow or the next day he wants to try it!! YAY!! i have lots of military friends and every time i see them talk about a skype date with their deployed man i get so unbelievably jealous since i figured i would never get the chance.. plus i have only seen two sucky pictures of rey during these whole 5 months.. that's a long freaking time to go without seeing your man!! so skyping sounds sooooo amazing!! i know i should not get my hopes up since every time i do it totally comes around and bites me in the butt.. but in this case i totally can't help it! so here's to hoping skype actually works, and that they are at this libbo port for a few more days because i LOVES talking to my man!

so, besides rey being at a port i'm pretty stoked on life because in ten days my sister will be here anywhere from 3-4 weeks! i loves my sister and to be able to spend that much time with her will be amazing! on october 28th my mom is getting both of her knees replaced and my sister is going to be here to help while her hubby redoes my bathroom, my parents bathroom, and some stuff in the kitchen! so pretty exciting! also, during the month of october is mikaele's halloween party which i am pretty stoked on since i am helping host and all of that fun stuff! to be honest i'm mostly excited about having an excuse to wear my rachel berry costume.. but rest assured it's pretty darn awesome! so that's why i'm stoked on october, and in november is generally a busy time at jordan commons where i work which mean lots of working which will definitely help that month fly by! also, i get to go down to cali to apartment hunt and meet up with my friend meslissa! yay!! then there is december which just so happens to be my birthday month which i am planning a pretty sweet get together! i love those mystery murder dinner things and have always wanted to host one and figure this is the perfect time! plus, it can be both my birthday and going away party so it's perfect! then i'll have a week or so to pack then i'm off to cali and hopefully shortly after that rey will be home!!! so yay!! i already feel like these past five months have gone by decently fast, and since i have a couple of busy and exciting months i'm definitely hoping that these next two go by just as fast!! so yeah.. that's about it for now!

peace in the middle east,
kristen

the big one zero!

yep, i have officially lost over ten pounds!!! woooot! i'm pretty excited cuz that was my original goal.. anything else after this is just a bonus! my starting weight as i have mentioned before was 169.8, and this morning my weight was 159.4.. so that's almost ten and a half pounds! also, can i just say that i have no idea when the last time i was in the 150's.. i wish i could say high school but i actually weighed more in high school and was in the 170's.. so i'm guessing middle schoolish or possibly early high school right after i quit soccer! so yeah, i'm pretty stoked right about now! still feeling a bit unporportionate due to my waist losing all the inches and my chest staying the same, but i'll take it! so since it's all ladies reading my blog i feel okay saying this, but from what i had heard periods slow down the weightloss and some ladies stop taking the hcg during this part but still do the 500 calorie thing and then pick up from where they left off, and others just go straight through, and since i wanted to finish when i had originally planned i went straight through and so far on the first three days of my period i have lost weight.. the first two half a pound, and then today a pound... so haha! screw you period! on the diet part i only have 11 more days.. so if i lose at least a half a pound a day, which seems fairly possible at my rate i could still lose another five pounds! woooot woot! man, i can't wait to get onto the maitenance part of this thing.. but i'm more than halfway there.. so i can totally do this!! yay!!

peace in the middle east,
kristen

tis the plan stan!

so, after all this hard work of losing weight i have been trying to come up with a plan in order to keep the weight off.. since i have seen some people go off this thing and gain it all back, and then i have seen my sis-in-law who has lost over sixty pounds and has been able to keep it off. oh, and when i say hard work, i mean it! no, i'm not going out and working my butt off, but eating the same food day in and day out with hardly any flavor and resisting the temptation to eat bad food has definitely been tough.. i dunno if it's just been that way for me since i love candy and potato chips, but this has been no walk in the park! near the beginning i came close to quitting, but luckily i have kept with it, and occasionally i'll get a little thought in my head that maybe it'd be easier to quit and just try and work out, but i am determined to finish this!!

okay, so back to my plan to keep it off! i figured the number one way for me to actually do this was to write it down so i would be able to see that i am going to try and make this commitment! okay, so i have heard quite a few girls talk about the work-out dvd thirty day shred and it's done by jillian michaels and they all say it's awesome! apparently it's only a twenty minute workout a day but i hear it's an awesome one so i figure it's worth a try and it'd be easy to fit in my day, because who really can't squeeze in twenty minutes? also, i am planning on eating pretty decently healthy, although i am also being real and know that i will want to eat some not so healthy stuff.. so i am going to give myself a cheat day once a week.. probably a saturday, but it will also depend on my work schedule! so i think with eating healthy most of the week and doing a twenty minute hardcore workout a day i will hopefully be able to mantain the weight that i lose and possibly shed another extra pound or two before the hubster gets home!!

oh, and can i just tell you how much i love general conference?! yep! i do! the past two times i have been in california and the only way for me to watch it was to watch it on my computer and i love that in utah you can just turn on your television and there it is! i love that next year rey will pretty much be out of the marines since he gets out october 15th 2011 and that we can be here in utah watching general conference together! it will be amazing!! plus, the past two times rey hasn't even been able to watch since last time he was out on the ship training, and the time before that he was at bridgeport! oh the lovely marine corps! he should hopefully be able to watch in the spring, but once again we will probably have to watch on my computer which doesn't seem all that much fun.. but it will work! ooooh! perhaps we could even get tickets next year and rey and i could go in person.. i think he would love that!! well, that's all for now!!

peace in the middle east,
kristen

OCTOBLER aka OCTOBER

check out the title laura.. i got it right this time! haha! anyways, today has already been an awesome day so i figured i should pay it some homage and write a little post in it's honor! first off, the fact alone that it is now october makes today awesome! number one it means that i am now one month closer to the hubster being home, and secondly october is just an awesome month! my only complaint would be for it to be a little cooler! normally october is in the 70's here in utah, but it's still in the high 80's.. boo!! i bought a really cute sweater and i just want to wear it!! so pleeeease cool down! thanks!! so, to start off the new month i got woken up by a phone call from my favoritest husband ever!! i love getting morning phone calls because seriously, the rest of the day just seems to go by so wonderfully and if anything sucky does happen i just remember that i got to talk to my husband today and it makes everything else seem so irrelevent! well, during the phone call he informed me that he FINALLY got promoted to corporal! i knew he was supposed to pick up today, but we were also told he was going to pick up september 1st so i took it with a grain of salt! well, he's now officially a corporal! i am sooooo proud of him!! for all my non military friends corporal is a big deal in the marine corps and you became a nco which stands for non commissioned officer.. so yeah! pretty exciting!! i guess that is kind of it so far, but for me that's a pretty good day! oh yeah, i am now officially down to 162! which means from my starting weight i am down almost 8 pounds!! plus, i generally measure myself everyday just to see where the current weight is coming off and i lost about half an inch on my hips! so take that womanly hips!! haha! i figure if i want to go down some jean sizes that is where i need to start losing more! i can actually already tell i am going down in jean sizes! i have both size 12 and 14 jeans.. but recently the size 12's have became way too tight and the size 14's were fitting more comfortably.. well now the size 14's are almost starting to get too big and the size 12's are fitting perfectly! i still have 16 days left of the losing weight part so hopefully by the end of this i can be in a size 10 jean.. that's my goal!! so yeah! that's it for now!!

peace in the middle east,
kristen