updates, updates, updates

you know you haven't blogged in a long time when someone has to remind you to blog!! okay, so maybe i didn't forget, but every time i remembered or thought about blogging i was sad or in a bad mood and knew it would just end up being yet another depressing deployment blog post, but today, i was pretty darn deteremined to get up a post, so if in the end it still turns out to be another depressing blog post i apologize!!!

so let's see.. what all has gone down since my last post?! first and foremost i guess i have just been staying busy with work! it may be a lame job and i may only be making 8.50 an hour, but this job has seriously been amazing for me. it truly has kept me busy and for the most part has given me a couple hours a week where my mind wouldn't solely be on rey and how much i miss him! plus, the extra money has been pretty awesome as well! another thing that has gone down was mikaele's halloween party! it was pretty fun.. kind of weird at first when some lameos came and brought some alcoholic beverages to our clean fun party, and after some awkwardness those people were kicked off and we were finally able to have some fun. after doing the whole hcg thing i decided to let myself have some sugar a little early, and i'm not going to lie, i went freaking NUTS!! like seriously! i was beyond hyper and to anyone i may have bugged i apologize! heck, my friend and i got so hyper we somehow thought it was a good idea to smash cupcakes in each other's faces... yeah, i dunno! speaking of hcg i finish the whole entire process tomorrow which means i can finally add in sugar, carbs, and straches.. although i must confess i have added in a little sugar and starches here in there.. so tomorrow is pretty much me just adding in carbs! i did quit the drops a week early, so i possibly could have lost a couple more pounds.. but everyday when i weigh myself i'm generally at 156.4.. so since my starting weight was 169.8 i think my final weight loss is going to be 12 and a half pounds.. and to be honest i am cool with that! although i think my goal for when rey gets home is going to be 155... if i lose even more than that it's just an added bonus! so my sister and brother in law finally got into town and that's been pretty cool. the worst part, which will probably be cooler tomorrow, is my sister is pregnant and just cooks crap all day! i want to eat it all soooooo bad! haha! they also brought their two huge dogs and at first it was super annoying cuz chloe didn't get along with them, but know one of them tolerates chloe and the other one and chloe are pretty good friends and play.. and it is so funny to watch chloe wrestle with this huge dog! as for rey he is doing good i suppose! i haven't really heard from him since he left his last port.. in all i have gotten two e-mails.. so that has been pretty depressing! the worst part is, is i think i have hit that deployment wall where i truly just don't want to deal with it anymore and am just ready for it to be over. okay, so i pretty much have felt that the ENTIRE deployment, but right now i really am just done! i think it's because after getting to talk to him on the phone so much and even skype it was a little taste of him being home, and now to have that all gone again has been pretty depressing!!

well, i think that's it! i know it's a lame update but it's all i've got!!

peace in the middle east,
kristen