sooo, i'm pretty sure i'm a horrible person! during rey's last deployment of all my marine wifey/girlfriend friends who also had men on deployments were a month or two behind me, and this deployment all of them are ahead of me. i definitely think i liked them being a month or two behind me because i am getting CRAZY jealous this time! last night one of my good wifey friend's had her man come home and while i was happy for her, at the same time i was really really bitter and kind of annoyed that it wasn't me that had my man coming home. basically i feel like a shiesty friend because i feel like i should be beyond excited for her! basically leading up until about a week ago i was, but just knowing that she gets to hug, kiss, and be with her man i can't help but feel sad that that isn't me. i keep trying to remind myself that she has gone through the whole seven months while i have only gone through five, but it still sucks!! it's kind of weird, but rey and i have hardly gotten to talk at all this deployment and the past few days we have gotten to talk for about an hour and a half to two hours and even have cute little skype dates and to be honest i think this has made things worse on me. i know it sounds crazy, but i think not talking to him so much has made it easier in the sense that i am used to not talking to him or seeing him, but now that i have gotten to have legit conversations and hear him laugh, and well, gotten to see him and watch him laugh i can't help but want to be with him even more. i think i'm just ready to be with my husband! i keep reminding myself that once he's back he's back for good and we wont ever have to say goodbye like that again, but sadly the past couple days have just been one of those days where i just miss him and basically nothing will cheer me up except for him being back with me, but since that's obviously not going to happen i should really just deal with it, but i just can't get myself to get over it! i took a few pictures of my super cutest skype date and i'll post them here for you all to see cuz i know you are just dying to see my man!
isn't he handsome?! i just loves him and he knows exactly how to make me smile! like i said, seeing him has made it a bit harder since it makes me long to have him back even more, but i am truly truly grateful to be able to skype with him since i know there are many military wifeys who haven't and won't get that opportunity! i think that really is my problem.. i'm just being selfish when i should really just be thankful for what i do have.. so here is my attempt at being grateful that even though i still have over two months left, i am so lucky that these past five have gone by so fast!!
peace in the middle east,
kristen
I know what you mean, there are a few that were a head of me by months and I had to hide them on facebook for the first couple weeks so I didn't have to see homecoming pictures or updates cause it caused me to be a mean friend... but I know that you don't mean it mean.
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