``CUZ YOU HAD A BAD DAY

so i know i already wrote today and did the whole thirty day question thing, but i've just been having a sucky day, and since this has pretty much turned into my journal since i have been sucking at keeping up on my real life one, i figured i'd write.. plus, the past couple of times i have let myself vent on here i felt much better afterwords, so hopefully this makes me feel the same way. so here goes...

the past few days have been pretty rough! the number one thing that is obviously getting to me is my lack of communication with rey. during rey's last deployment we got to talk every day for a half hour to an hour for one week, and then i wouldn't hear from him for a week.. that was pretty much how it always went! occasionally i wouldn't hear from him for like ten or so days, but that was probably the most.. so going into this deployment i figured it would be different and possibly worse, but i never could have imagined how much worse. phone call wise i haven't talked to him for almost a month and a half.. and it is so unbelievably hard to not hear that amazing voice of his just saying the simplest things.. like 'i love you' and 'miss you'. yes, once in there he did call but it was unbelievably staticy and i was barely able to pick up those few words, but it's just so hard to go on with only that. yes, i do get the occasional e-mail.. but he's not the best at computers and since he is only allowed on for twenty minutes a day he doesn't get to write all that much.. although that was back in the day when the computers actually worked. pretty much the last little bit rey's e-mail didn't work nor did his facebook chat, or messaging so the only way we could talk was by writing on each other's facebook wall.. yeah, not exactly ideal.. plus, when facebook chat does work it is always kicking him off.. it just sucks! you would think after all these guys are doing that maybe, just maybe they could get them some phones that worked and weren't all crazy and staticy and computers that would let them do the simple things like check their e-mail and use facebook! although, at this point i would take messed up facebook since as of right now the guys aren't allowed on the phones or computers for an unspecified amount of time. so basically i could possibly not here from rey, for a few days, weeks, or possibly even months.. and right now that is a pretty scary thought! as some of you may or may not have heard there was some monsoon in pakistan so that's where rey and the rest of the ships are helping out! it is nice to know where he actually is, but it also sucks not knowing when i will hear from rey again. i just hate this! yes, i know things could be so much worse, but to top it all off i just feel so depressed and alone at the moment.. rey's not here and who knows how long it will be till i will hear from him again, my parents are out of town.. one of my best friends is on a mission.. another one of my best friends just left utah again till october and well.. it all just sucks! luckily my parents come back tomorrow.. and i'm thinking that within the next few days things will start looking up.. but as of right now.. life is just blah! well, that's it for now!

peace in the middle east,
kristen