Getting Healthy!

So as I mentioned back in January I really wanted to lose some weight! I got to a weight that I just was not comfortable with, and honestly I just felt gross! I hated looking in the mirror and I hated seeing pictures of myself. I started working out, and doing a little bit of watching what I ate. During the two weeks that I worked out I was able to lose 4 pounds and a couple of inches here and there, but then I ended up hurting my foot which put me out of the game for about 2 months, so that was a major bummer! Although, somehow during those 2 weeks I lost two more pounds. Rey thinks it was because since I was working out hardcore for those two weeks it got my metabolism going again. I dunno, either way, it felt nice! Well, the other week I felt like my foot was healed enough and I went and bought a nice pair of running shoes and got back to working out. This time I didn't want to phone it in and really wanted to do this so I started eating super healthy and calorie counting along with my workouts! Well, my first week back working out I lost 3 pounds! woot woot! My weigh-ins are on friday, but I couldn't help myself and checked my weight this morning and was down another pound, which means.. I have lost TEN pounds! awesome right?! My goal is to be at my pre-pregnancy weight on Seeley's first birthday, and as of right now I'm 12 pounds away from that, so I think it is totally doable! After that my next goal is to get down to a healthy weight. Now, I don't want to be super skinny, what i want is to be at a healthy looking weight. In all honesty I'd love to get down to a size 8. Right now I'm so dedicated and I truly think I can do this.

When it comes to weight loss my biggest problem has always been food! I just love to eat! Well, on my journey to become healthy, it hasn't been that long and I've already come to realize how much food I was eating that I didn't even need to eat. Since I've cut back on calories and have been counting every little calorie I've never once felt hungry like I assumed I would. I was basically just eating to eat. When i was bored.. I ate, when I was watching tv, I snacked. Actually, now there are times when I'm not even feeling hungry but I eat a healthy snack so I can make my calorie goal since I have to eat at least 1500 calories a day since I'm still breastfeeding. Seriously though, Pinterest has become my new best friend and I have found the yummiest food, and to top it off it's healthy! Also, the book Eating for Life has been a lifesavor too! Eating for Life has the best recipes and it's all from stuff you have around your kitchen, not weird ingredients that you've never heard of. It also gives you the correct portion sizes which is awesome. Tonight I made a pita bbq chicken pizza and it tasted EXACTLY like california pizza kitchen's and it was only 200 calories a pizza! I love that I can eat good, eat what I want, and still lose weight! It's definitely been easier than I thought it would be and I can't wait to really see the results of all this hard work!

L.O.V.E

Since it's Valentines Day I figured I would write a little something about the two people I love the most!  First off, My amazing husband Rey! I am so thankful that he and I are sealed for time and ALL eternity because I cannot imagine my life without him. We have been apart due to deployments in the past and I know what it's like to have him gone and I just don't like it. Although, as much as those deployments stunk, I am so thankful for them because it has shown me not to take any day with a loved one for granted! Really though, I am so incredibly lucky! He is my bestest friend in the whole entire world and is always making me laugh, and knows just what to say to make me feel better when I'm feeling sad. He without a doubt is the hardest working and most determined person I have ever met. He is working full time AND going to school full time and he still finds time to show Seeley and I how much he cares about us. I know I don't thank him enough for all that he does, but I am so grateful to have a husband that would do absolutely anything to make sure Seeley and I have a good life. Not only is Rey and amazing husband, he is an amazing father. I thought I loved Rey before, but the way he is with Seeley has only made me fall even more in love with him. He is so tender and caring towards Seeley and you can just tell how much he loves him and know that he would do anything for him. We are so so lucky to have him in our lives! I love you so so so much Rey and I look forward to spending time and all eternity with you. Thank you for being such a good husband and father.

Next, Seeley! This kid is so amazing and has changed my life in a way that I never thought possible. I thank Heavenly Father every single night that he has chosen me, and has allowed me to be his mother. He is so sweet and is getting funnier every single day. One of my favorite things is in the morning after he wakes up and is finished eating he looks up at me with the BIGGEST smile ever and then starts "talking". It's so cute and even though sometimes he wakes up at crazy early hours I can't help but smile and be excited that I get to spend my day with the most amazing little boy. When he takes naps or goes to bed at night my heart aches a little because I miss him so much! The best part though, is when he wakes up from those naps all he wants to do is snuggle for 10-15 minutes as we watch cartoons. As much as I love him being little, I so look forward to watching him grow and learn. I love you my little Seeley Bug! Thank you for being such an amazing little boy!!

Good News, Bad News

Well, the good news is, after two weeks of working out I've only lost 4 pounds, but lost two inches off my chest, and two and a half inches on my waist! I think I only lost 1 pound this week because I had built some muscle, but I'm super happy with the inches I have lost. Now, the bad news.. Something in my left heel is killing me! I seriously can barely walk! It really stinks because I had finally got into an awesome workout routine and had got my mile down by a whole minute. I was really getting into working out and was dead set on running and training for a half marathon, and then boom! I tried just walking on the treadmill today and only made it a mile and a half before I had to stop due to the pain. I knew that if I kept pushing it then I'd make it worse and it'd take even longer to heal. So for now I'm going to take time off and hope that it heals on its own. I'm really hoping that it will be feeling better by Monday so I can once again get going. So yeah, boooo! I was really looking forward to this week since I figured since this past week I mostly built muscle that this week I'd be able to shed the pounds! Oh well! It is what it is.. just hopefully I don't have to wait so long that I'll basically have to start all over!

healthy krito

So, as I mentioned in my last post I am sick and tired of being fat! Clothes fit on me weird, I feel blah, and honestly I just don't feel good about myself. I HATE seeing pictures of myself and really want to get down to a healthy weight. My goal right now is to get down to my pre-pregnancy weight by Seeley's first birthday. Honestly, I'm not sure I'm going to be able to get there, but that is my goal! After Seeley's birthday I just plan to get healthy and to a good weight! I'd actually be happy with 160, but think 150 would be a really good weight for me. As I said before, dieting just seems weird since I breastfeed and I have to eat extra calories, so for now my goal is to get in shape. Then, when Seeley is done nursing I can be in good shape and add a good diet and hopefully can shed off those extra pounds. As of right now I've been working out for a little over a week and so far I've lost 3 pounds and an inch off my waist. It may not be much, but it has made me feel like I can do this! I'm also getting really serious about my running a disney half marathon. They do one twice a year, one in January and I think the other is in September, and right now I'm hoping that I can be ready by September 2014! Obviously that is a long time away, but I feel like it will give me the perfect amount of time to get in shape and really get prepared. With our tax return money I'm hoping to invest in a jogging stroller and that way I can practice my jogs! Oh, and maybe a good pair of running shoes since the shoes I have been using this past week are killing my feet! Anywho! Just thought I'd share since I've really set my mind to it, and hopefully me writing it out will help me want to achieve this even more!

I work out..

Wow, I am one sore Kristen!!! I absolutely hate seeing pictures of myself these days. I went from chubby, to just plain fat and I hate it! I feel like dieting is just too hard right now since I have to actually eat extra due to breastfeeding so for now I'm going to try exercising until I'm done breastfeeding and then I'm going to try a real diet. Well, to start off my exercise routine I did Jillian Michael's 30 day shred. I did it once shortly after I had Seeley, but I got so sore and Seeley was a much more demanding baby so I only did it that once. Well, I started it this past Wednesday and I can tell I'm even more out of shape then I was the first time I did it. I woke up Thursday feeling crazy sore, but knew if I didn't keep going I probably wouldn't keep up with it so I did it again. OMG! Well, Friday I woke up the most sore I have ever been in my entire life. Seriously, every single muscle is sore.. my calves, my thighs, my biceps, triceps, chest, shoulders... you get the point. Also, to top things off , TMI alert, I got my period. Not only my period, but my very first since getting pregnant with Seeley. It was pretty depressing! My last period was August 27th 2011. As you can imagine it was pretty amazing to go a year and a half without having a period. I'm actually kind of wondering if me exercising helped trigger it. Well, because of my sore body and my period I took a break. Although, today I made sure to jump back on the wagon and exercised again. I know I have only done it for 3 days, but I feel so accomplished and really hope that I can keep it up. I seriously can't wait for Spring & Summer because I plan to go on walks. That way I can do my 30 day shred for toning and use the walks for cardio. I eventually want to get where I can go for jogs, and where I can enjoy running again. I used to love to run and when I was younger I remember always talking about wanting to run a marathon. Well, I think that if I can get back into running, perhaps as a way to reward myself I can do one of the disneyland half marathons. Twice a year Disneyland does a half marathon and they sound amazing!! You get to run through the park and go backstage and you even get to run through Angel Stadium, and also along the way there are disney characters that you can stop and take your pictures with. Obviously, that is my kind of Marathon! So I'm pretty serious about my future walks, so as soon as the temperature is appropriate if anybody is up for it let me know and we can go on walks together! Anywho, I can see Seeley stirring on the baby monitor so I better kick it!

holidays, sickness, and life

well, we recently had seeley's first christmas! it was such a fun day, and it's even better knowing that as seeley gets older it's only to get better and funner! it was funny because my sister-in-law said we could do christmas morning with them and when i asked what time she said 6 in the morning and i just said you guys have fun and we'll be up around 10-11. We woke up around 10:30 when Seeley woke up and had a fun little morning. I'd open a present one at a time for Seeley and he'd look at it and play with it for a minute then we'd open another one. It was so cute and funny because he'd be playing with one present and then I'd open another for him and then he wouldn't know which toy he'd want to play with. After that we went upstairs and hung out with the family. It was fun having my parents there for Seeley's first Christmas, but kind of sad to know that they wont be here next year, especially since next year will be even better. So yeah, that was Christmas. Seeley got a ton of presents and just spent some quality time with the fam bam! New Years was a bust since Rey had to work till 11 New Years Eve, and then had to be back at 7 in the morning New Years Day so he just decided to stay at the hotel that night since they can stay there for free when they work back to backs. I was a little sad, but I let Rey make the decision since he was the one who would have to go to bed late and wake up early and drive. So not only did I spend New Years Eve alone, New Years Day was horrible because Seeley got sick for the first time. Seeley got a fever that went up to 102 and there is really NOTHING worse than seeing your baby sick. I know that when I'm sick I feel like junk, and I can only imagine how horrible it would be to be a little baby and feel that way and not know why. Sometimes when he would cry in pain I'd just hold him tight and cry with him. I wanted more than anything to take away that pain, but the poor guy just had to suffer through it. After two days of being sick I decided to take him to the dr. I was figuring that it was just one of those sickness's that would pass on its own, but I started to get worried that maybe he had an ear infection or something like that and I wanted to make sure it didn't turn into something worse because I waited. Well, we ended up taking him to the dr and they basically said it was a bad cold. The funny thing is, after we got home he started feeling so much better and by that night he was acting like the same old silly Seeley. He was even feeling well enough that I went and played some women's church ball. I knew I was out of shape, but holy moly! By the end of it I thought I was going to pass out. I even was guarding the only old lady on the other team and was still having a hard time keeping up! haha! One time I even had a breakaway moment and was going towards the basket and felt like I was going to pass out so I just stopped and shot halfway there... yeah, it was a little sad, but this just gave me the motivation to start really working out. I can't wait for spring because I can once again take Seeley on walks and hopefully start going on jogs. I hate being this out of shape and I hate being this big! Plus, I'm at such a weird size. For christmas Rey took me shopping at the mall and I tried on clothes and in the normal stores I tried on the XL's and they were too tight. I then decided to try going to Torrid. I asked about their sizing and they told me their size 0 was actually a size 12. Well, I tried it on and it definitely was no size 12.. that thing was HUGE on me! I think they say that to make them chubby girls feel better. So yeah, I'm not exactly sure what size I am these days and I'm hating clothes because they all fit so weird on me! Anywho.. I think that is all for now... not really much going on here except for me lovin' on and takin care of my lil man! He's the best! So laterz for now!

peace

Being a parent has definitely changed my view of the world. Before, I would have been sad about what happened at that elementary school in connecticut, but now that I have Seeley it affected me in a way that I can't even begin to explain. I have definitely been holding Seeley a bit closer these days and have been giving him lots of kisses and snuggles. It's so sad to think about what this stupid crazy idiot took away from those poor innocent children and their families. I have no idea how those parents are handling it and they have definitely been in my prayers. We've already been wrapping and putting Seeley's presents under the tree, and I can't imagine the pain those parents are feeling when they have to look at the tree and see their presents for their lost children that wont be used. So so sad! The other day on facebook I saw this picture on facebook and it immediately brought tears to my eyes because I knew it was true and that is what was happening.

I didn't go to my own ward yesterday since I went to my friend's baby blessing but my parents told an amazing story that a returned missionary told at their sacrament meeting. It was a story about how this family was at this monument place taking pictures and their little two year old was crawling around some tombstones and one fell on him and had hit him in the head. Well, this little boy wasn't doing well and they had called an ambulance for help. I guess things were really bad and blood was coming out of this child's ears. They wanted to try and get all the children away so they couldn't see, and one three year old said that he didn't want to leave because Jesus was there and he wanted to see Jesus. The person asked how he knew it was Jesus and he said because he looked like the guy in the picture at their house but instead of a red robe he was wearing a white one. The guy asked more questions and the little three year old said that Jesus was holding the little boy. The man then said he's holding his body? And the three year old responded saying not that body, but his other body and that Jesus was hugging the little boy and kissing his forehead and telling him that everything was going to be alright and that he was taking him home. The story brought even more tears to my eyes because it was just another conformation that Jesus was with those children that were killed the other day and even though this horrible thing happened to them they were taken care of and are in a much better place.