how silly was i?

so, i don't really know what i was thinking back in the day, but growing up i always figured that as soon as a couple wanted a baby.. BOOM they would get preggo.. but i have definitely found out that is far far far from the truth! yes, i know, with rey getting out of the marines it may not be the best time to be trying to have a baby, but both rey and i really really want to start a family. also, something my mom said a couple years back has really stuck with me.. she told me that having a family was one of the greatest blessings and that one should never wait for "the perfect time" to get pregnant because you'd be missing out on so much and how that it may be tough, but you will figure everything out. basically, all i know is that both rey and i can't wait to be parents so why wait for that "perfect" time? anywho! this whole baby thing is crazy! i have read up on it quite a bit lately and even with a healthy couple there is only a 20% chance of getting pregnant with doing everything at the right time.. it's just craziness! i also read that most healthy couples will be trying for 6-12 months before they get pregnant! BOOO! that's way too long! plus, when there are shows like 16 and pregnant where these teens who shouldn't even be parents yet get pregnant.. and then people i see on facebook are all announcing being pregnant and it just makes you wonder what's up with you?! one of my best friends in california is also trying to have a baby and she is experiencing the same stuff as me! rey the other day made a comment on how he felt like we were in a competition with them to see who gets pregnant first, but honestly i would love it if she got pregnant! it would show me that it is actually possible! ha! plus, i know how she is having the same thoughts! it's just so discouraging when there is nothing else in the world that you want more! i know i just need to put my trust in the Lord and know that he will bless us a with a child when the time is right, but i think i'm a tad bit too impatient.. especially when i know how good of parents both rey and i could be.. so wish us luck, because this whole baby making thing is tough! ha!

peace in the middle east,
kristen