i gave in..

yes folks! i gave in! i am going to go and try the whole hcg craze! the funny thing is, like a year ago i was dead set against it.. and actually, to this day i'm still not sure it's the safest thing in the world, but my sister-in-law has talked me into it! in about a year's amount of time my sis-in-law has lost close to eighty pounds and has kept it off and she has read all the books on it and why it works and blah blah blah and has convinced me to give it a try. the one thing that freaks me out at this point is generally down the road with things like this you see things about how people get cancer and heart problems and blah blah blah, but my sis-in-law has done a pretty good job of convincing me it's safe, which to some point kind of makes sense since hcg is what is in pregnant chicks.. anyways.. i'm kind of freaking myself out so i shall just stop now! haha!

okay, so i should be getting my hcg stuff in the mail either today or tomorrow and i think i'm going to start on tuesday! i haven't decided yet if this is good or bad yet.. but this will mean i will be on the maitenance part this thing on halloween, which means no halloween candy! as of right now that seems good since i tend to eat waaaaay too much halloween candy, but i have a feeling when halloween time actually comes i will be a bit sad.. although at this point i'm pretty set on losing the weight! i had originally planned on losing the weight by going to the gym, but honestly, a pass was far too expensive and after work i was just too tired. right now i'm hoping that once i lose some weight i will feel more motivated to eat healthy and exercise to mantain the weight i will have lost. rey has lost over 30 pounds on the ship and personally i don't want him to come home to a tubby wife! i know he wouldn't care, but for me i would just rather him come home to a healthy wife.. basically i think it would be more for me! since rey has been gone i know i have gained five or more pounds, and i hate it! pretty much after my freshman year of snow college i lost some weight! i got a gym pass and had a personal trainer for awhile and for me i felt i was looking pretty good and generally stayed at an average of 165. when rey and i got married the stress of everything put me up to 168, which kind of sucked, since who wants to be at their heaviest in quite a while for their wedding?! anyways! after i moved to california.. i'm not exactly sure how it happened but i just dropped all the weight and went down to 162! i pretty much stayed that weight for quite awhile.. basically until rey's deployment work-up really went into effect and once again i think i gained stress weight since i tend to be a stress eater! so basically.. i think i am up to 172 right now.. so basically i'm not a happy camper and i can feel myself going up in dress sizes and i just don't like it! i think i'm actually getting to the weight i was at in high school! not cool! so basically i'm really hoping this hcg thing works and i can get down to a decent size.. heck.. i'd be fine with only getting down to 160, since when in cali and i got down to that size i felt pretty comfortable with it! either way.. i hope this works!

peace in the middle east,
kristen